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Hi you guys! 

First of all, thank you to everyone who’s shared their stories of recovery and everything that they’re going through. It’s super helpful. 
I’ve been dealing with this for almost 4 months now and I just had a couple questions. 
When I’m half asleep ( and half awake ), I get these random images in my head where I see myself imagining a girls butt ( I am a girl ). I get so much anxiety when this happens because I really don’t want to be gay at all but I can’t help but wonder why I’m imagining a girls butt in the first place. It’s so frustrating to me and I just want this all to go away. 
I’m also dating someone at the moment and he’s an amazing guy. Sometimes when I tell him I love him my brain twists it around and asks me if I really do love him or if I’m lying to him ( because I keep thinking I might be gay ). 

Does anyone else feel like this? Please help! 

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Hi there,

 

First off having sexual thoughts about the same sex is normal. The issue you’re having is that you are ascribing weight the thoughts. 

Something I realized going through recovery, I’m still in recovery, is those ocd thoughts elicit anxiety. That tells me those are ocd thoughts and not my real feelings. Because, how can something you like bring anxiety? Those are not your real thoughts. So, I no longer fight or deny them. I simply let them be and even agree with them. I’ll say, yeah, that’s a handsome man. Then I just let it go and slowly the anxiety starts to drop. 

So, as Ali would say, if those thoughts pop in disregard them. Take the power back by saying things like at this moment, there is anxiety. Don’t say I have anxiety. Do not identify with something you are not. Put some distance between who you are and what anxiety is. At least that works for me. You can recover but you have to want to do the work and stand up to the anxiety.

 

If I can do you, you can too. 

good luck 

 

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Its typical OCD- If you keep giving it attention and give into these thoughts- it will get worse! so you need to act now!

WHat happens is OCD knows that the topic and or issue bothers you. When you first wake up in the morning or when your going to bed- your brain is in a theta state which is more susceptible to intrusive thoughts- Once you freak out it flags that thought and brings it back on repeat. Thoughts are unfortunately there- We cant do anything about them- however its when you take them seriously- That is the problem!

You must disregard it- It goes away- Believe me.

If anyone on this forum has gone to hell and back with this OCD....  its me!

Remember- People are born that way- They do not change, they do not turn- They are born that way- Full stop end of story.

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Hello Denjin and Joe, 

 

it was me who had uploaded the above post. I just Wasn’t logged in at the time. 

I want to thank you both for taking out the time and responding to my worry. It really means a lot. It’s been a little over a month since I posted this and I feel like I am doing better. I’m able to disregard and not ruminate. 

what worries me is, even though I’ve been disregarding and even though I don’t ruminate about it as much - I still keep checking all the time. It’s become an involuntary thing to check, whenever I’m in public. Another thing is that even though I have been actively trying to disregard, it’s been almost two months now and the thoughts are still there and they still cause anxiety. Is there anything wrong I’m doing here? 

any and all advice is accepted. Thank you so much again and more power to both of you! We will recover! 

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Quote from Tlulla26 on April 5, 2021, 9:53 pm

Hello Denjin and Joe, 

 

it was me who had uploaded the above post. I just Wasn’t logged in at the time. 

I want to thank you both for taking out the time and responding to my worry. It really means a lot. It’s been a little over a month since I posted this and I feel like I am doing better. I’m able to disregard and not ruminate. 

what worries me is, even though I’ve been disregarding and even though I don’t ruminate about it as much - I still keep checking all the time. It’s become an involuntary thing to check, whenever I’m in public. Another thing is that even though I have been actively trying to disregard, it’s been almost two months now and the thoughts are still there and they still cause anxiety. Is there anything wrong I’m doing here? 

any and all advice is accepted. Thank you so much again and more power to both of you! We will recover! 

The issue is exactly what you said- You keep doing rituals and rumination or compulsions. For as long as you continue that behavior- OCD will be around. When you stop.. OCD starves out and goes away.

 

Its your choice to ignore the thoughts. You have no control of what thought is coming in- HOWEVER the response and reaction IS ALL YOU!

STOP IT ALL!

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Right. That makes sense. Thank you. 

Just so I’m clear, the fact that I’m checking is the ritual? Am I right? So that’s something I need to stop doing. Yes? This is just so I understand and work on it better. 

thank you again! 

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Last time i will re-assure you... Yes- STOP IT ALL. That and anything relating to it- is all OCD or a mechanism of OCD.

 

STOP IT ALL! 

Im here to push people over the recovery line- i am not here to re-assure! Just so we are clear.

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okay great. Thank you!