Quote from Guest on February 6, 2021, 2:07 am
This honestly really helped me^. It’s so funny too because the amount of ocd themes I’ve had is INSANE. Yet, when a new one arises, I think “this is the one that must be real”. I have never had any feelings for girls i am a straight girl i have had boyfriends, crushes on guys, always imagining marrying a man and all of that. Yet, recently these HOCD thoughts have taken over my life and try to attack every aspect of it. I know I am not gay- yet i still doubt it because of stupid ocd. Ive had this intrusive thought maybe 3 other times in my life but i had other more prominent themes at the time that were more obsessive but also my ocd was a lot lesser than it has been this year, and i used to dismiss these thoughts and be like “its not real you know that whatever”. But for some reason NOW they MUST be real. It’s a sick game ocd, one week i had hocd thoughts the next day i saw a trigger about self harm and BOOM the hocd thoughts didn’t bother me at all anymore and the self harm thoughts and obsession took over. It’s really all about realizing this is a theme of ocd, this is just ocd. This is not anything more than that. People are born gay, they grow up knowing what they like at a very young age, and by NOW if you liked girls you would have known a long long time ago. This is just the twisted game of ocd, I struggle every single day but i refuse to give up. If we believed all of our intrusive thoughts we’d be insane. It sucks but i promise each and every day is baby steps!