Quote from starstruck on February 4, 2021, 2:30 am
Today I read a post about someone going through something similar and they said that in the end they accepted those thoughts and that they are bi or gay or something. And now I'm even more afraid because I don't want to accept those thoughts because I don't wanna be gay because firstly, I don't want to fall in love with the same sex and secondly, no one in my household is accepting of all this. But mostly the first one. And I am not a homophobe but I just, I don't want to be gay. I broke up in my last relationship which was a perfect relationship tbh because I was having intrusive thoughts that I didn't actually like him. Now I get the thoughts that I didn't like him because I am actually gay. This is seriously freaking me out. I am a student so I can't go to a therapist or a professional, but I am trying my hardest to practise mindfulness at home. Just, I want these thoughts to go away so I can live my life in peace.