Quote from Deleted user on February 2, 2021, 8:09 am
I am really trying so hard but it's just not stopping. Nowadays my mind is even trying to convince me that I didn't actually like the guys I thought I did and I actually liked girls. I actually had intrusive thoughts before too but I always managed to overcome them and keep them in check but right now I have just gotten through a breakup and they are really intense this time. I just, I don't know what to do. I don't want to be gay I really don't. But these thoughts simply just don't stop no matter what I do. And I have read the replies on this site and I understand that if I was actually gay I would not be here seeking reassurance but then I always think 'what if I am?' and the whole cycle of thoughts just starts again