Quote from Lotusflower on September 11, 2021, 10:20 pm
I am not sure if you'll see this since it's been awhile. I hope things have gotten better for you in the time being. I definitely understand the struggle of intrusive thoughts.
Try to remember that people that actually seek/want to do awful things regarding harm, do not actually contemplate their feelings or feel bad for having the thoughts. You wouldn't catch someone truly evil seeking out help like you have on this forum.
Now I know this is reassurance and you should learn to live without seeking it but this is also the truth.
Try to practice sitting with the thoughts. Become comfortable with these thoughts as if it were an average thought that crosses your mind.
It is not the thought but the fear that lies behind it that erks you...
I will send peaceful energy your way my friend. We all just want peace.