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So i been diagnosed with pure o and well my fears has always been, losing control, have schizophrenia, having a psychotic break, being psychotic and a long etc, and of course harm somebody, i have to say that i’m having a lot of anxiety since last year, my level right now is on top, i have to say i tried to kill myself in december for fear of believing thoughts that i knew they weren’t real but that’s another thing, what is causing me so much anxiety, and fear is that i have intrusive thoughts about my mother poisoning me, i know that’s no true, i fear that i’m gonna do something to my mother cuz i’m gonna believe It, and here comes the worst, when i’m having a lot of anxiety this happen and my psychology told me is my anxiety and ocd but i don’t think this is normal, well i’m gonna explain, when i’m checking to myself to see if those thoughts are true this happened, for a few seconds i believe that, i mean my mind knew and It was so sure that that’s what the true, feel like i lose control of myself and reality cuz to my mind for a few seconds is true that my mum is trying to poison me, is like i’m not longer in control of my mind, she decide that that’s is the truth, is like i know for a seconds that that’s the true, is real my mom is poisoning me, and after that happen i start having a panick attack, and that’s is how my last week has been, i been having a lot of panick attacks, and a lot of intrusive thoughts, like i’m going to eat and my mine is, she’s poisoning you, i left my water in the living room and my mind again she’s going to poison It, and i can’t take It anymore, cuz i love my mother with all my fucking heart, she’s the best mother i could ask for, so this is killing me, cuz i feel like i doubt, and that give me anxiety, i feel like is true and that give me anxiety, i feel like i’m suspicious of my mother and that give anxiety, and i was a little better i tried no to check mentally and for a day i got so much better i feel like i was having anxiety for nothing cuz is dumb, and i really try to no ruminate, but yesterday got another panick attack, i feel like i was having a psychotic break and i tried to kill myself, i just wanna know if someone has feel this, if this is normal cuz i believe is not, so please somebody please help me, because is like a lapse, and is like 2/3 seconds even tho sometimes It feel like an eternity, so that’s is, a lapse in wich my my mind take control over me, or im going crazy or i don’t know, but for those seconds i believe that that’s the true, my mind know is true, is the reality, is all true and i know is true and i feel It too, is like i stop being me, and im psychotic already cause my mind know is the pure true, and when that finnish just after that finnish i start having a panick attack, so i really wanna know if this is normal, is just my ocd or anxiety, please somebody please help me, and thank you in advance

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Hey, I have the same intrusive thoughts

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I used to have the same thought as you. I would get an OCD thought that my mom had put poison on my food and drink. Try to stop ruminating and disregard the thoughts. I know how tough this is because in the moment it feels so real. God bless you. 

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Quote from Guest on January 24, 2021, 7:30 pm

I used to have the same thought as you. I would get an OCD thought that my mom had put poison on my food and drink. Try to stop ruminating and disregard the thoughts. I know how tough this is because in the moment it feels so real. God bless you. 

Thank you so much! Is true that if i don't ruminate i feel better, i feel like i'm worrying for nothing, but that panick attack feel so bad, i have many panick attacks, but that one, is like my mind was so damn sure It was the true, like she knows is true and i feel that i believe that for a seconds and i feel like going crazy and angry cuz i did believe that and i was going to hurt my mother and after that my panick attack begin, thank you so much, and God blees you too!

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Quote from Guest on January 24, 2021, 3:35 pm

Hey, I have the same intrusive thoughts

And how are you doing? It happened the same to you? About like your mind believing and knowing is true for a seconds and after that getting a panick attack? Hope you are better

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You have to understand that this is all OCD. it will make everything feel real. Have you tried to do exposures? Maybe try to write down your intrusive thoughts? 

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Quote from Guest on January 25, 2021, 4:41 pm

You have to understand that this is all OCD. it will make everything feel real. Have you tried to do exposures? Maybe try to write down your intrusive thoughts? 

But is not only making me feel like is true, is just for a seconds i know is true, like i believe that thought, is true that my mom in poisoning me and i feel crazy

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It is ocd try to stop ruminating. Do not do compulsions. Have you watched any of the Ali Greymond videos on rumination and compulsions. 

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Quote from Guest on January 25, 2021, 11:19 pm

It is ocd try to stop ruminating. Do not do compulsions. Have you watched any of the Ali Greymond videos on rumination and compulsions. 

I didn't i watched i lot of videos of her but no those, It happened to you the same that happened to me? Like believing 

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Yes my OCD told me she was going to poison my drink and then I feared I was going to hurt her. Trust me this is OCD. First step is to try to stop rumination. This will immediately help. Disregard the thoughts and feelings. I know it feels real I know the emotions and sensations you are feeling. It is awful but you gotta battle through. God bless you. 

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I have really horrible harm and pocd, I can not accept the the premise its all gonna work out fine. I am so stuck at the moment I dont want my life anymore. So again, how do you guys have the guts to accept its ocd. (2)
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Hey I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I struggle with many of the same things. It’s incredibly hard and I’m nowhere near perfect at identifying the OCD and overcoming the OCD, but I know that I have hope. And you need to have hope smile hope is the most power tool in fighting the enemy’s lies. So keep strong, keep killing it. Be proud of yourself and the progress you’ve ma
thank you for your kind response, it means a lot to me
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(4) same person a*s anonymous 188329, How do i supose to feel when in exposure. for example, when I do an exposure with harm OCD I feel like I can snap every moment and harm someone, when I am disregarding my ocd is screaming it louder than ever. (I supose this is normal because my i invalidate my thought and by that my brain thinks im in danger???)
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