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Can anyone help with false memory OCD?

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Hello. I have False Memory OCD. For the last two months, the topic has been connected with the fact that I suddenly attacked a person. It all started with the usual thought that I suddenly attacked, but I realized that I did not remember leaving. Then I thought that I suddenly attacked a man somewhere in the entrance of my house. I felt terribly mentally and the next days I pondered this thought and, as it were, imagined the thought that I wanted to attack, in order to understand whether I had such a thought then, after which the thought immediately occurred that I suddenly attacked now. Suddenly, for a while, I imagined the thought that I wanted to attack, and suddenly I had a thought and suddenly I attacked. But I realized that I did not remember leaving. The next days I also imagined a thought, it interrupted the old one and I worried about the new OCD situation. Now I understand that all those situations were like a cycle. I was pondering the old OCD situation, imagining the thought, and the thought immediately occurred to me that I suddenly attacked and I was thinking about this OCD situation. The thoughts began to come that I suddenly attacked a man and carried him to a room that was located next to the apartment, but which was closed, the keys to it were with the neighbors. After the thought came that I suddenly attacked, I worried that suddenly the door was open, suddenly I carried a person there. But the door was closed. Over time, thoughts began to come that I suddenly carried the man into the hatch, which is located near the house. I looked at the hatch and tried to lift it, but the cover was very heavy. I realized that I could not lift it. Then I thought that I suddenly carried the man into one of the hatches, which are located near other entrances. I looked at these hatches. Tried to raise the roof. Then the thought came into my head that I suddenly carried the man into some kind of hatch located somewhere in the district. I walked around the courtyards, looked at the hatches, tried to figure out which one was open. In the meantime, I realized that all thoughts about the fact that I suddenly attacked are connected with the fact that I kind of imagine these thoughts, that I kind of want. But then I noticed that thoughts about the fact that I suddenly attacked come not only because I imagined a thought, but also from the fact that, for example, when I slept at night and pondered some thought, it occurred to me thought that I suddenly attacked. In the morning I realized that I didn’t remember that time clearly and the thought came into my head that suddenly I was leaving, suddenly I attacked. Also, the thought came when I was irritated and, as it were, thoughts that I want to attack from irritation came to my mind, the thought that suddenly I attacked, panic, excitement came to my mind. Then I was very scared by the thought. I understood that I did not remember leaving, but I remembered the irritation and the thought that suddenly I attacked came into my head. I understood that this OCD situation is one of the strongest blows from the OCD, but the thought came into my head that suddenly it was not an OCD, suddenly I attacked. I walked around and looked at the hatches. I tried to understand if I was in those places where the hatches are. But before a week had passed since that OCD situation, a new OCD situation happened a few days later. I was lying on the couch, could not sleep, I was attacked by these performances. OCD was like trying to lure me into a state so that I could start imagining a thought again and get a new thought that suddenly I was attacked. I slept and, imagining how I was lying, as if imagined something for a second and then the thought came that suddenly I attacked. Suddenly I got up and suddenly I left the house, suddenly I attacked. I realized that I did not remember leaving, but imagined some kind of thought. The next day I slept during the day. And when I woke up a few hours later, I recalled that when I slept in my head there were thoughts that I suddenly attacked. I began to worry that suddenly I was leaving the apartment, suddenly I attacked then. But I didn't remember leaving. The next day, I was attacked by OCD all day and seemed to shout that I should think about the situation that I suddenly attacked then. I pondered and, as it were, twice imagined the thought that suddenly I had attacked, after which the thought came that suddenly I had just attacked. But I understand that most likely I imagined a thought and I don't remember leaving. I went to bed in the afternoon. I slept for three hours, maybe more. I don’t remember exactly how I woke up and I don’t clearly remember that time, but I kind of imagined the thought that I wanted to attack or something like that. The thought immediately occurred to me that I suddenly attacked. I was lying on the couch. I understood that I did not remember leaving, but what I imagined was very frightening to me. The thought came into my head that suddenly I had not imagined, suddenly I had a real thought. I did not understand why I imagined this thought. But I realized that I was half asleep and perhaps had no control over the appearance of this imagination of thought. But thoughts came into my head that I suddenly attacked. I was locked in the apartment, and the second keys were hidden. I didn't know where. I got up and started looking for them. I have not found them. But thoughts crept into my head that suddenly I got up then, suddenly I found them, suddenly I attacked, suddenly I put them where I found and forgot. But I couldn't forget if I found the keys. I would like to hear your opinion on this situation. Is this false memory OCD? What is this "imagination of thought". Why am I imagining such thoughts? I am very worried that I do not have a panic. The thought that suddenly in the last situation I attacked, suddenly I did not imagine something, and suddenly I wanted and suddenly I attacked. I am very worried about the latter situation and would like to hear your opinion. Thanks in advance for your reply.

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Anonymous188387
I have really horrible harm and pocd, I can not accept the the premise its all gonna work out fine. I am so stuck at the moment I dont want my life anymore. So again, how do you guys have the guts to accept its ocd. (2)
honestly when i have ocd thoughts i always tell myself a 'normal' person wouldn't think like this. But it makes me feel worse because of the thoughts I have. Just remember everytime you have a thought from ocd don't forget you have ocd if that makes sense. Different things will work for everyone so try find something that will work for you. It takes so much work but you will get there.
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Same person, please dont tell me i need to accept the unsurtanty, I tried that for years, it just doesnt work when your OCD tells you your a sick psychopath
Anonymous188387
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Anonymous188387
To give a better picture, my ocd convinces me I have very dark personality traits I supress, and when I stop with OCD behaviour I will basacly be a person like ted bundy. I dont want it, and by saying that to myself i this intrusion was gone for years, but lately it came back and its f**king me up big time. It tries me to convince I want this, and I am a monster, its also starting with the (3)
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Anonymous188387
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Anonymous188328
Hey I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I struggle with many of the same things. It’s incredibly hard and I’m nowhere near perfect at identifying the OCD and overcoming the OCD, but I know that I have hope. And you need to have hope smile hope is the most power tool in fighting the enemy’s lies. So keep strong, keep killing it. Be proud of yourself and the progress you’ve ma
thank you for your kind response, it means a lot to me
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(4) same person a*s anonymous 188329, How do i supose to feel when in exposure. for example, when I do an exposure with harm OCD I feel like I can snap every moment and harm someone, when I am disregarding my ocd is screaming it louder than ever. (I supose this is normal because my i invalidate my thought and by that my brain thinks im in danger???)
For me doing exposure is so difficult and it just brings more and more thoughts. People say overtime the anxiety will eventually go down and for some people its easy but i'm so scared that i will never get better and maybe i'm just overthinking things
Anonymous188336
(5) I observe that I am really scared while disregarding (an emotion outside control, not like responding with fear but more like an auto response because my brain is hardwired this way) Is this normal or am I doing something wrong here. Ps thanks in advance for all the responses, i really love how people try to help while suffering themself, a true case of altruïsm if you ask me haha
Anonymous188336
(4) same person a*s anonymous 188329, How do i supose to feel when in exposure. for example, when I do an exposure with harm OCD I feel like I can snap every moment and harm someone, when I am disregarding my ocd is screaming it louder than ever. (I supose this is normal because my i invalidate my thought and by that my brain thinks im in danger???)
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for what it is and dont buy in the content. So, is it reacurance behaviour or good (I see progress, dont know if its relevant)
Anonymous188329
keeping my s**t together when disregarding, my brain tends to automaticaly drift in reasurance behaviour. I've noticed that I listen to Ali on spotify almost religiously because it keeps my mind straight on what im doing and i dont enter OCD land. having sed that, Its not clear if its reasurance behaviour for me, because it DOES keep the anxiety low, but more in a way i keep seeing the thoughts (2
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Anonymous188220
I need help, how can i know this is ocd. I have harm, pocd, cleaning ocd, false memory ocd, real event ocd, groinal responses, false attraction, how do i know, i dont want this, or that i dont have a horrible supressed side. Its killing me inside, i dont want to deal with this s**t any longer. I just cant accept the unknown, not with themes like these at least.
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