HOCD Chat 
Anonymous84970 I am a female w/HOCD. Its getting too real at this point. It feels like I am "checking out" or becoming "attracted" to females the way a straight man does. I hate this feeling. Am I just saying I want to be straight so I don't have to deal w/ being gay? Are these attractions real and am I using OCD as a cover up? I was never into women before this, am I just discovering it now and can't accept it?
Anonymous84970 The anxiety is gone, and when ever I get an intrusive thought I just feel like crying bc I dont want it but it feels like its 100% real, even when my anxiety is low. Is this OCD?
Anonymous84970 hey guys, could really use the help
Anonymous71472 Going to the mall is hard during pride month
Anonymous85441 is anyone there?
Anonymous73579 I thought of something the other day that kind of helped me and maybe it might help someone else too. I wa
Anonymous73579
Anonymous73579
I thought of something the other day that kind of helped me and maybe it might help someone else too. I wa
I was worrying for the thousandth time if this is really just denial. Then I thought this is actually kind of like the opposite of denial. From my understanding with denial, the person deep down knows they are gay but are trying to convince themselves they are straight. Deep down I feel I am straight but it’s like I’m trying to convince myself I’m gay. If that makes sense
Anonymous85441 the question I have is, how does a gay person "convince" themselves they are straight? Do they actively like to have gay thoughts and just say that its not them? For me, whenever I get a thought, it feels like I like it but only when I have the thought. Then it follows with intense anxiety and sadness because I am so scared that it might be real or my OCD.
Anonymous85441 Like my brain just keeps telling me that I am les, attracted to females, and that I just can't accept it. I have been fighting the thoughts for almost two years and I am so scared that I am no longer straight and just afraid to accept myself as gay or I have really just been straight all along and its my OCD talking
Anonymous86716 A good advice from is to stop watching p**n , it will help 😅
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Anonymous75969
if I was straight before all of this and I know I have HOCD, will I go back to being straight after treatment?
I saw many people that recover and return to their old life
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Anonymous77705
Tried masturbating to men, but i f**king hated it.
this is a reassurance behavior you should stop it
Anonymous71472 I need to know if having hcod dreams are a thing
Anonymous87228 https://www.psychforums.com/obsessive-compulsive/topic192118.html

I highly suggest everyone struggling with HOCD read this, and take this to heart. This is essentially the key to recovery and answers all the questions many HOCD sufferers have. Take into advice this persons advice. I’ve done it and have felt my old self come back.
Anonymous87228 Everyone can recover from this. This is also probably the easier OCD to recover from because of the biological aspect. But Remember the key is to accept all thoughts and feelings urges etc. Let them flow in and out. No anxiety or with anxiety. Let them come and go. Slowly the veil of ocd will lift and you’ll see for yourself. Your brain will catch up to your heart!
Anonymous69423
Anonymous77705
Tried masturbating to men, but i f**king hated it.
If you do exposures like going out to be around men but not in that way you will realize hey I don’t feel any attraction but anxiety cause it’s just saying what if in my head. You will be back
Anonymous69423 I’ve only had HOCD FOR A MONTH and I’ve already studied how it works and how to beat it. I’m already back in my body and my attraction is still in check with women.
Anonymous85281 Can you have HOCD but also be in denial? I feel like sometimes I know I want to be w/a man but sometimes I feel like I rly am les and it gives me intense anxiety. How do you even tell what your “underlying self” is?
Anonymous73579 Is anyone in a similar stage rn. I feel like the thoughts don’t really give me that much anxiety anymore but then I get freaked out because they aren’t freaking me out. Also it feels like my thoughts keep just shifting around from one thing to another. For example at first it was like oh no I thought that girl was pretty does that mean I’m lesbian to worrying if I was attracted to my friend
Anonymous73579 I just hate this so much because I loved my life so much before all this started and I was so happy and I loved to imagine my life with a husband. Now though it just feels like I don’t know what I want and it just pops up all the time. And it sounds straight forward. If I don’t want to be with a girl than don’t. But I keep doubting my wants and everything before and my mind just can’t let
Anonymous69423 Guys when you try to analyze your letting fear Analyze for you. Anxiety has formed a layer on top of your real emotions, making it hard to tell. Your always at what if, and your urges are anxiety because your thinking about it a lot and your body sends signals to what your thinking about or what your trying to find out to do.
Anonymous69423 When your ignore more that cloaked layer starts to come off because your starving that ocd so it won’t have anything to leech onto anymore
Anonymous88832 Hey guys so I’ve been suffering with how’d since November and lately I’ve been doing better but I still feel like I’m in denial. Everytime I look at a mans b**t I feel like I like it. And now recently I was hanging son vacation with some friends and friend was laying in laying in bed I was jokingly jumping in with him but all the sudden I felt and urge that I wanted to kiss him
Anonymous88832
Anonymous88832
Hey guys so I’ve been suffering with how’d since November and lately I’ve been doing better but I still feel like I’m in denial. Everytime I look at a mans b**t I feel like I like it. And now recently I was hanging son vacation with some friends and friend was laying in laying in bed I was jokingly jumping in with him but all the sudden I felt and urge that I wanted to kiss him
What’s scarring me is that I’m not getting anxiety anymore with these thoughts and it feels real honestly it feels like I’m actually gay and I don’t want to be
Anonymous69423
Anonymous88832
What’s scarring me is that I’m not getting anxiety anymore with these thoughts and it feels real honestly it feels like I’m actually gay and I don’t want to be
Tell me where you thinking about it then it gave you the urge?
Anonymous73579
Anonymous88832
What’s scarring me is that I’m not getting anxiety anymore with these thoughts and it feels real honestly it feels like I’m actually gay and I don’t want to be
For you, was the anxiety super intense at first but now it isn’t which makes it feel like it’s denial or something
Anonymous88832
Anonymous69423
Tell me where you thinking about it then it gave you the urge?
usually I just look at the person an I get this off feeling then I get these thoughts of “yeah you should kiss him or yeah you should have s*x with him” then I get this feeling that I’m gonna do it but in my heart don’t want to and I don’t get anxiety until all of this happens
Anonymous88832
Anonymous88832
usually I just look at the person an I get this off feeling then I get these thoughts of “yeah you should kiss him or yeah you should have s*x with him” then I get this feeling that I’m gonna do it but in my heart don’t want to and I don’t get anxiety until all of this happens
*until after it happens
Anonymous88832
Anonymous88832
usually I just look at the person an I get this off feeling then I get these thoughts of “yeah you should kiss him or yeah you should have s*x with him” then I get this feeling that I’m gonna do it but in my heart don’t want to and I don’t get anxiety until all of this happens
Yeah so when It first happened I couldn’t even with actual people in it because I was so scarred of looking at the men and that I’d crush on them then when I found out about hocd I started recovery but for these past months I still feel like I’m in denial because I don’t get anxiety as much heck sometimes there’s other things that give me more anxiety then the hocd
Anonymous88832
Anonymous88832
Yeah so when It first happened I couldn’t even with actual people in it because I was so scarred of looking at the men and that I’d crush on them then when I found out about hocd I started recovery but for these past months I still feel like I’m in denial because I don’t get anxiety as much heck sometimes there’s other things that give me more anxiety then the hocd
* I couldn’t watch tv with people in it
Anonymous69423 What you described is all ocd friend
Anonymous69423 Left you something to read
Anonymous88832
Anonymous69423
Left you something to read
Thank you god bless you man and I’ll keep fighting
Anonymous69423 Michelle
Anonymous89174 Hello?
Anonymous89174 This seems to not be as active
Anonymous89174 sad
Anonymous73579 Does anyone know if you ever go back to how you were before? I used to never think about this and then all the sudden it became all I could think about. It still seems like thoughts about figuring out sexuality are always on the back of my mind. Do you ever go back to not thinking about it
Anonymous73579 My other question is can hocd change your sexuality? Because I really don’t want it to change and I never felt like I could be bi at all before these intrusive thoughts started. But the thought doesn’t really scare me anymore, I more just feel sad at the thought of losing what I’ve always wanted before I’ve even had the chance to have it
Anonymous85281
Anonymous73579
My other question is can hocd change your sexuality? Because I really don’t want it to change and I never felt like I could be bi at all before these intrusive thoughts started. But the thought doesn’t really scare me anymore, I more just feel sad at the thought of losing what I’ve always wanted before I’ve even had the chance to have it
This is a great question, try posting it on the OCD main chat and you will get an answer from Michele or Ali
Anonymous91107 The thoughts don’t bother me as much but the feelings that come with them do. When I play out scenarios in my mind on if I would like to have s*x with a dude, it’s starting to feel like I like it instead of disgust or anxiety. Is this normal for HOCD?
Anonymous91546 hi
Anonymous92083
Anonymous85441
Like my brain just keeps telling me that I am les, attracted to females, and that I just can't accept it. I have been fighting the thoughts for almost two years and I am so scared that I am no longer straight and just afraid to accept myself as gay or I have really just been straight all along and its my OCD talking
It’s your OCD talking! Just let it talk and don’t talk back! It’s hard but repeat that behaviour and you will see a difference
Anonymous92498
Anonymous91107
The thoughts don’t bother me as much but the feelings that come with them do. When I play out scenarios in my mind on if I would like to have s*x with a dude, it’s starting to feel like I like it instead of disgust or anxiety. Is this normal for HOCD?
Any help would be seriously appreciated right now.
Anonymous94124
Anonymous92083
It’s your OCD talking! Just let it talk and don’t talk back! It’s hard but repeat that behaviour and you will see a difference
What should I do if i have hocd
Anonymous95028 is it normal in OCD to doubt that your thoughts are not unwanted? or your brain is trying to convince you that they are not unwanted but you just get so much dstress from it bc you cant accept it?
Anonymous90841 Its a doubting disorder. Everyone who has OCD doubts it. I had the same concerns as well. The less you care about it, and say "meh, whatever" the more the constant brain garbage dies
Anonymous97877 Hi somebody pls help me! I have Hocd
Anonymous99282 Hey I have a question, Is it a compulsion if every time I see a woman I ask myself if I would want to kiss her be with h? Am I supposed to just observe without asking?
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