HOCD Chat 
Anonymous104668 So a good reason why I don't want to be gay is that I don't want to be rejected by my parents. When someone asks me if I want to be gay excluding my parent's situation, I feel as if I will be openly gay . This haunts me . Is it still hocd?? I am so scared. Anyone plz reply. And ya I am new here
Anonymous105194 I have crisis a today. I have very bad mood, very very strong groinal responses and i thingn that this never stop. Can you help me? Please!
Anonymous108112 Hi, I just found this site I’m 12 and I believe I have Hocd and it’s ruining my life. I am doing better in day time during school but when I’m at home (a trigger itself because I’m alone) It just attacks me I can’t eat anything really I can’t focus or anything. When I sleep it comes into my dreams and I have 4 hours of sleep then wake up panicking. I want to scream but I can’t I just
Anonymous109193 hello, im 21 , male, never had "gay thoughts" before in my life, had girl crushes always, had 5 exes all girls and hookups too, wokeup one day with a weird dream and started asking if im gay or not,well its been a month and im doing better but every now and then i thinkmaybe its nothocd and i might be in denial and thats scary, prolly cus i dont have a therapist.. im in college and everything
Anonymous105471 Hey, i have a question. Is it normal if I don't feel anxiety anymore but still have thoughts about girls? I have this feeling like i actually want it and like I'm in denial. Idk but few months ago i would be happy that i don't feel anxiety and I knew i'm not attracted to girls but now I'm not happy and feel like i really want it
Anonymous110365 Hey everyone i was diagnosed with hocd . I feel that i walk like a girl or a gay man it's really horrifying to the point of not getting out of the house
Anonymous114982 Hello! I’m 13 and I am suffering with hocd. I hate the thought of going out with females and it makes me feel sick, I’m really attracted to guys and they’ve always been my crushes. But I always have this memory from when I was 5 or 6… I had one and only friend and she was always there for me. I had recently found out that gay people were real as my aunt is gay. I think I might have gone ou
Anonymous114982 Out with my friend at some point or liked them as something else, idrk but it may have been nothing but I remember them saying we would like together in the future and I kissed their bag and told them to kiss it (idk why lol), but I really regret it and it’s not me at all! Does this make me gay?
Anonymous114982 The thing that scares me the most is secretly being gay my entire life and hiding it! Could this be true? But I really want to date guys and want to have a family someday. Help?
Anonymous114982 (Btw my friend was female and I was also female, and we were like 5 or 6 idk)
Anonymous116827 Can someone help me
Anonymous116828 I have had false attraction for my friends, I still have, idk why to do
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Anonymous116827 I honestly don’t know wtf this is I was just searching for hocd recovery stories because they make me feel better before I go to sleep and found this, what is it?
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Anonymous116827 Hello, I am 12 years old and think I’m suffering from HOCD. Before this all’s started, I loved my life. I felt no attraction to girls whatsoever, and had crushes on guys all the time. I obsessed over them. Since I was a very mature child, you could say I knew a lot. Even when I was questioned, I knew I was straight and always had been. I was so straight that I would literally shower with my fr
Anonymous116827 friends and feel no attracted whatsoever. But then one day when I was going for a walk, my mum pointed out a females legs and said “look she has strong legs like you” so that put my attention on that. While we were following a group of people walking up a hill, I was looking at the females in front of me,s b**t. I’m still not sure why I was doing this, but I’m 100% sure it was not in a sex
Anonymous116827 sexual way**
Anonymous116827 Then the next morning, I was just scrolling on my ohone and was thinking “ew why was I looking at their butts that’s weird” then it hit me. What if your bi? I still remember the feeling. Dizzy, lightheaded, and I even went out and told my mum I was feeling sick. And that’s when it all started
Anonymous116827 There is a lot more to this story, but my main fear is that since I am so young I fear that this will actually affect me in future. There is so much more I want to talk about- but if you want to hear it please reply anyone. And yeah I’m new here
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Hello! I’m 13 and I am suffering with hocd. I hate the thought of going out with females and it makes me feel sick, I’m really attracted to guys and they’ve always been my crushes. But I always have this memory from when I was 5 or 6… I had one and only friend and she was always there for me. I had recently found out that gay people were real as my aunt is gay. I think I might have gone ou
Hey we are similar ages- the younger ones suffering. Would love to chat
Anonymous117416 idk why this chat is dead but idk how to help u
Anonymous119329 Hello?
Anonymous116827 HI
Anonymous119461 okay never mind i was looking at guys with big d and force myself to get hard but didn’t
Anonymous119782 I need someone to talk to
Anonymous119901 hi what’s up?!
Anonymous120169 Hii
Anonymous120169 please
Anonymous121201 can you get a groinal response from an image?, this has been causing a lot of anxiety
Anonymous116827 I HAVE BEEN GETTING GROINAL RESPONSES FROM IMAGES THIS WHOLE TIME OMG FINALLY SOMEONE LIKE ME
Anonymous131585 i know doing this right now as i write this comment is a type of compulsion and im seeking reassurance but please someone answer me this! I have been suffering from HOCD for 5 months now, I wokeup one day with a weird dream of kissing one of my guy friends (im a boy) and started questioning myself. I have always been straight, I am 21 years of age, I never had such dreams or thoughts before. I hav
Anonymous131585 Now anything i do , i question what i did maybe looked gay or not.. I wakeup with weird gay dreams sometimes, the mornings are the worst because as soon as i wakeup the theme starts and i cant stop it...
Anonymous131585 got fedup yesterday, and tried Imagining Gay things and m********e to check myself.. I did e*******e but felt disgust and it didnt feel as good but idk because ocd puts false memories... but the feeling was ego dystonic. Please Just answer me this because i do not know that well about this. Why did i e*******e if i am not gay?
Anonymous138992 Hi
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Anonymous131585
Now anything i do , i question what i did maybe looked gay or not.. I wakeup with weird gay dreams sometimes, the mornings are the worst because as soon as i wakeup the theme starts and i cant stop it...
This is ocd. I’m the same.
Anonymous140386 What if a gay thought convence me that I actually wanted to do it and i think I'm repressed but didn't feel any fear, just a sensation like something wasn't right
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Anonymous105471
Hey, i have a question. Is it normal if I don't feel anxiety anymore but still have thoughts about girls? I have this feeling like i actually want it and like I'm in denial. Idk but few months ago i would be happy that i don't feel anxiety and I knew i'm not attracted to girls but now I'm not happy and feel like i really want it
This happened to me as well, thas that feeling like you wanted come with arousal sensation as well?
Anonymous140545 Can someone help me
Anonymous140735 I get such bad panic attacks sometimes and I haven’t dealt with it in a while and now it’s happening again where I start panicking really bad and can’t breathe. I know I’m not but sometimes I try to see what if I just say I am and then it’s like I’m calm but then I’m like but i don’t want to be and I’m not and then I start panicking cause although I know I’m not I get scared I
Anonymous140735 Reading that other people go through this makes me feel better that im not alone cause sometimes I get scared that maybe it’s an excuse and maybe I am but I know im not and im not interested in females in any way and I do like guys but I just get so scared like even now cause what if im lying to myself
Anonymous140735 Is anyone on?
Anonymous140386 I'm on
Anonymous140386 Can I have a groinal withouth feeling anxiaty? Cause it felt like real arousal and I'm not even freaking out and I don't want to suck other dudes but the thoughts and sensations (something moving on my mouth and tingles on my p***s) feel so real and they feel like some sort of real pleasure but at the same time they made me feel unconfortable and distress. Before this I never really had an oral f
Anonymous140386 Before this I never really had an oral fixation when it came to my sexual preferences and my brain constanly playing this scenerio on my head it's so confusing, and exhauting.
Anonymous142792 hi
Anonymous142792 I am in woman and was in complete isolation this past couple of weeks.. always been straight never looked at a woman differently.. I even shared a bed with my friend(girl)... in isolation I had intrusive thoughts act her.. I thought I need to face my fears.. I came to meet her sleeping on the couch.. I had intrusive thoughts act her while I was talking to her
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Anonymous142792
I am in woman and was in complete isolation this past couple of weeks.. always been straight never looked at a woman differently.. I even shared a bed with my friend(girl)... in isolation I had intrusive thoughts act her.. I thought I need to face my fears.. I came to meet her sleeping on the couch.. I had intrusive thoughts act her while I was talking to her
I even told myself any thoughts that related to her will feel real even if u don't feel any anxiety.. you need to disregard these thoughts.. but by early morning I am having couple questions... what if I am just resisting... what if isolation is turning me gay?
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I even told myself any thoughts that related to her will feel real even if u don't feel any anxiety.. you need to disregard these thoughts.. but by early morning I am having couple questions... what if I am just resisting... what if isolation is turning me gay?
I feel like I need to come here and post or look at mom and constantly remind myself what is at stake(loosing my identity to this voice, hurting my family, etc). if I don't constantly remind myself that I need to disregard any thoughts that may come.. otherwise I feel I might give up and give in to this voice and do something really stupid
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I feel like I need to come here and post or look at mom and constantly remind myself what is at stake(loosing my identity to this voice, hurting my family, etc). if I don't constantly remind myself that I need to disregard any thoughts that may come.. otherwise I feel I might give up and give in to this voice and do something really stupid
Anonymous142792 is me. is anyone online
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