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Anonymous188748
Hi, I have hocd but recently I feel like I’ve been getting what I hope to be false memories. I keep remembering scenes of tv shows that I thought to be hot earlier in life and I can only see the girl in these memories. My brain is telling me that I was attracted to these girls before I had hocd. I’m scared that means I’m a lesbian. Is this just ocd or not?
Anonymous188719
i cant take this anymore
Anonymous188024
Is there anyone who has experienced false attraction when it comes to hocd?? How did it feel??
Anonymous187842
i always loved to watch series where female lead have equal powers like male lead but that time i knew that i am straight and i am just doing so because i am a feminist nut recently a friend asked me if i am a lesbian an i started overthink and its make me feel disturbed and anxioux i dont know what to do
Anonymous187842
hi i am a 17 years old girl and i always likeed males but recetly when my winter breakes started i started getting thoughts of being lesbian but personally i dont like these toughts i am scared what if i will be a lesbian in future ,i never wanted to be a lesbian ,and i always try to reassure myself that i am straight i even started thinking i am bi .
Anonymous187244
I'm so anxious all the time and I feel like I'm going to cry
Anonymous187244
And now it's making me scared to tell my mum and like I'm living in a lie
Anonymous187244
I'm fifteen I've had this for almost a year now and suddenly the signs of hocd have decreased and it feels like I'm attracted to girls but I don't know im always in a battle with myself because apparently I'm definitely lesbian even though I've never had a crush on a girl before only attraction to older unattainable women and this only started a week ago now I can't even tell if it's false attra
Anonymous186840
Anonymous182493
I promise that you don’t feel that way your thoughts are ego dystonic. In case don’t know what that means, its essentially where the thoughts don’t line up with who you are.
@Anonymous182493: o
Anonymous186840
Anonymous186149
Hi I’m 17 girl I getting thought that i am gay /lesbian or not I never question my sexuality and idk but in my college a girl said I’m beautiful and she would’ve crush on something like that and it didn’t bother me at that time but idk how I was preparing for exam and this thought are coming to me that I’m gay or not and I’m so uncomfortable and distressed I can’t do my daily works I
That happens to meet too!!! I'm 15 F and I had similar thoughts to. One thing that helps me is to remind myself that it's just OCD trying to keep you hostage. Another thing that helps is for me to calm down. When your drowning in anxiety, It's hard to push the fog away and think clearly and when you calm your self down, you will realize it was all just ocd and the thoughts mean absolutely nothing.
Anonymous186149
I feel like crying I can’t stop this thoughts comes then goes and I disturb alot I hv exam how do I study with it I didn’t told anyone
Anonymous186149
Hi I’m 17 girl I getting thought that i am gay /lesbian or not I never question my sexuality and idk but in my college a girl said I’m beautiful and she would’ve crush on something like that and it didn’t bother me at that time but idk how I was preparing for exam and this thought are coming to me that I’m gay or not and I’m so uncomfortable and distressed I can’t do my daily works I
Anonymous185541
When I used to check, I would view gay p**n in order to make it clear to myself that I was not attracted to that, something that I have stopped doing. I stopped because when I viewed the videos, I did not like them yet I still experienced groinal responses. This resulted in panic attacks and more anxiety.
Anonymous185541
I’m currently recovering from HOCD, but now I’m spiraling again. I know that I have never been attracted to men and that I have no interest in that. I’m beginning to panic again whenever I see a gay couple on TV and I get flashbacks of when I used to check and the dark places it used to take me to. I’m just so angry at this whole thing.
Anonymous183983
these thoughts make me avoid some movies and check me eractions I don't like this thoughts so how can tell because these feeling that I am atract to man feel real how can I tell if that an HOCD
Anonymous183983
my thoughts doubt about if this thoughts not ocd my mind is so tired of analysing but I don't know iam straight for my whole life I haven't been ever attract or get arousal by man but after this thoughts there is a time get ereaction by image in my mind of some one masterbating that make me inter in a panic a take I get so so anxious but that very rare not always my confused me
Anonymous183924
Seamstress
Sounds like you are still trying to figure it out by searching online etc. as well as trying to seek reassurance from this chat group. This will only make things worse. Try following advice below. I know it is hard, but you can do it.
I feel like there is no way to go back to u old self when everything use to make sense now is hell everysingle day
Anonymous183924
This is the worth thing i had ever experience in my life no even 1 second for peace I rather die i never feel something about somebody of my same s*x now it like everything hell only sleeping a little peace or maybe dead
Seamstress
Anonymous183595
I saw a gay person said that they spent most of their life trying not to feel the way they feel, am i using hocd to try to supress my feelings or is it just an illness and im really not gay?
Sounds like you are still trying to figure it out by searching online etc. as well as trying to seek reassurance from this chat group. This will only make things worse. Try following advice below. I know it is hard, but you can do it.
Anonymous183595
I saw a gay person said that they spent most of their life trying not to feel the way they feel, am i using hocd to try to supress my feelings or is it just an illness and im really not gay?
Flaaffy
Anonymous183595
Hi please help, i did some quizzes to find out if i was gay. How to know if you are sexually qttracted to women? I have tested it but i never felt happy or excited. I have found many women beautiful and that scars me so i test it as well. But i never felt aroused thinking about them i just felt uncomfortable and scared. I know what it feels like to be attracted to men, im scared of liking women
I agree with Seamstress, you’re best off disengaging with the subject. Focus on other areas of your life. While OCD wants an immediate and irrefutable answer to the question of your sexuality, the problem is that OCD will doubt any answer you give it. There is no quiz you can take or test you can perform that will give you an answer that OCD will accept. You need to stop playing OCD’s game.
Seamstress
Anonymous183595
Hi please help, i did some quizzes to find out if i was gay. How to know if you are sexually qttracted to women? I have tested it but i never felt happy or excited. I have found many women beautiful and that scars me so i test it as well. But i never felt aroused thinking about them i just felt uncomfortable and scared. I know what it feels like to be attracted to men, im scared of liking women
I think it would be in your best interest to stop all checking for feelings, imagining etc. - it is basically rumination and trying to figure things out which only increases OCD. Try to focus on something other than figuring out your sexuality and the anxiety should lessen over time.
Anonymous183595
Hi please help, i did some quizzes to find out if i was gay. How to know if you are sexually qttracted to women? I have tested it but i never felt happy or excited. I have found many women beautiful and that scars me so i test it as well. But i never felt aroused thinking about them i just felt uncomfortable and scared. I know what it feels like to be attracted to men, im scared of liking women
Anonymous183595
How to know if im sexually attracted to the same s*x? I test it out by imagining situations when im kissing them or having s*x with them and then check if im aroused. I also checked gay p**n. Most times i didnt get a reaction. Sometimes i believe i got a groinal response, but this didnt happen as often. But each time i never felt happy or excited, i was just scared, disgusted and cried.
Anonymous183595
Do coming out scenes on tv trigger your hocd. Like i instantly see myself in that situation or coming out qnd i get very anxious. Is this ocd again. Im scared that i would actually have to come out like the characters.
Anonymous183595
I saw a post saying i had hocd but then i realised i was bi. This really triggers me, im scared that im actually bi and this ocd is an indicator of it. I dont know if these people really had hocd or not. Im scared that im gonna realise that im bi as well
Anonymous183592
Anonymous183592
It's normal to feel anxious when you disregard an OCD thought, feeling, or urge, especially at the start of recovery. After all, that anxiety is how OCD tries to get you to engage with it. Try to accept that the anxiety might linger after disregarding OCD. Usually, performing compulsions is what gives you immediate but short-term relief from that anxiety, but you must resist compulsions 1/2
if you want to recover from OCD. It will become easier the more you do it, and the lingering anxiety will become more manageable! 2/2
Anonymous183592
Anonymous183257
they said ignoring thoughts doesnt mean u like it, but i feel so anxious if i dont react to it, it disturb me so much trying to ignore it.
It's normal to feel anxious when you disregard an OCD thought, feeling, or urge, especially at the start of recovery. After all, that anxiety is how OCD tries to get you to engage with it. Try to accept that the anxiety might linger after disregarding OCD. Usually, performing compulsions is what gives you immediate but short-term relief from that anxiety, but you must resist compulsions 1/2
Anonymous183257
they said ignoring thoughts doesnt mean u like it, but i feel so anxious if i dont react to it, it disturb me so much trying to ignore it.
Anonymous182493
Anonymous183257
I have hocd and lately my mind has been finding memories to prove that Im gay, i suddenly remember this online friend i had a long time ago when i didnt have hocd yet, i ththought it was a male the whole time (the looks) and kinda developed some kinda connections, but then turned out she was a lesbian n didnt tell, i was like nope im not doing this but now im recalling this, does this mean im bi??
No it doesn’t. there are some women that do look more like men and there are some men that look more like women. I have mistaken some men for women before and some women for men. you probably thought it really was a guy now your OCD is just using it to mess with you but no that doesn’t mean that.
Anonymous183257
I have hocd and lately my mind has been finding memories to prove that Im gay, i suddenly remember this online friend i had a long time ago when i didnt have hocd yet, i ththought it was a male the whole time (the looks) and kinda developed some kinda connections, but then turned out she was a lesbian n didnt tell, i was like nope im not doing this but now im recalling this, does this mean im bi??
Anonymous182493
Anonymous182493
If it happens to be the case that arrangements cannot be made, don’t worry you will be okay. I know that OCD is difficult and I know exactly what you’re going through, but you can do this. There are gonna be other times where the anxiety gets triggered from something, but you have to stay strong.
what you can do if it gets to be too much is to just take a break. Leave the room and calm the anxiety down. Then you can come back when you’re ready. There is another technique you can use. I don’t know if you know about it, but you can name your OCD. this will help you separate yourself from your thoughts. For example, I named my OCD George and it helps me out.
Anonymous182493
Anonymous183257
i suffer hocd for months now, but i dont do therapy or get help for financial reasons. My school is forcing us to do swimming lessons, im really afraid to see some content at the swimming pool n it could create so much anxiety for me at the spot. What should i do
If it happens to be the case that arrangements cannot be made, don’t worry you will be okay. I know that OCD is difficult and I know exactly what you’re going through, but you can do this. There are gonna be other times where the anxiety gets triggered from something, but you have to stay strong.
Anonymous182493
Anonymous183257
i suffer hocd for months now, but i dont do therapy or get help for financial reasons. My school is forcing us to do swimming lessons, im really afraid to see some content at the swimming pool n it could create so much anxiety for me at the spot. What should i do
I promise that you don’t feel that way your thoughts are ego dystonic. In case don’t know what that means, its essentially where the thoughts don’t line up with who you are.
Anonymous182493
Anonymous183257
i suffer hocd for months now, but i dont do therapy or get help for financial reasons. My school is forcing us to do swimming lessons, im really afraid to see some content at the swimming pool n it could create so much anxiety for me at the spot. What should i do

Anonymous182493
Anonymous183257
i suffer hocd for months now, but i dont do therapy or get help for financial reasons. My school is forcing us to do swimming lessons, im really afraid to see some content at the swimming pool n it could create so much anxiety for me at the spot. What should i do
Hey, just remember that all feelings and sensations you’re getting are not real. It’s your OCD messing with you. Although, if it is really bothering you, you can explain your situation to someone you trust and you can see if other arrangements could be made.
Anonymous183257
i suffer hocd for months now, but i dont do therapy or get help for financial reasons. My school is forcing us to do swimming lessons, im really afraid to see some content at the swimming pool n it could create so much anxiety for me at the spot. What should i do
Anonymous183284
Anonymous183257
ik im straight n have hocd, but one day a comment says gay ppl afraid theyr straight comes, then im starting to fear if one day im actually turning gay n fear that im straight, while rn im fearing the opposite thing. im getting so anxious rn, my mind cant even make up anything
Learn to be comfortable in the unknown. If you want only to be in relationships with the opposite s*x, then that is a choice you can make. If you truly are same-s*x attracted, it will make itself known to you in the future but only once you can manage your OCD. Until then, you must disregard the thought because you are not in a place where you can properly assess it. 3/3
Anonymous183284
Anonymous183257
ik im straight n have hocd, but one day a comment says gay ppl afraid theyr straight comes, then im starting to fear if one day im actually turning gay n fear that im straight, while rn im fearing the opposite thing. im getting so anxious rn, my mind cant even make up anything
While it's unlikely that you're same-s*x attracted, OCD is asking for the impossible: incontrovertible proof that you're straight. Some people discover their true sexuality much later in their lives, so you'll never find the kind of unassailable evidence you're looking for. 2/3
Anonymous183284
Anonymous183257
ik im straight n have hocd, but one day a comment says gay ppl afraid theyr straight comes, then im starting to fear if one day im actually turning gay n fear that im straight, while rn im fearing the opposite thing. im getting so anxious rn, my mind cant even make up anything
It can be difficult to determine if you're same-s*x attracted (meaning lesbian, gay, or bisexual) because many LGB people experience the same fear and shame people with HOCD do. While LGB acceptance has increased, it can still be difficult to come to terms with one's own sexuality. 1/3
Anonymous182493
Anonymous183257
ik im straight n have hocd, but one day a comment says gay ppl afraid theyr straight comes, then im starting to fear if one day im actually turning gay n fear that im straight, while rn im fearing the opposite thing. im getting so anxious rn, my mind cant even make up anything
It’s the same thing. You’re ruminating about the same theme
Anonymous183257
ik im straight n have hocd, but one day a comment says gay ppl afraid theyr straight comes, then im starting to fear if one day im actually turning gay n fear that im straight, while rn im fearing the opposite thing. im getting so anxious rn, my mind cant even make up anything
Anonymous182493
Anonymous182657
i pretty much felt all the symptoms of HOCD for close to 2 weeks this time, in the past ive experienced this before and i did not know there was such disorder. then all of a sudden after i looked into it it felt like it was gone. that scared me more, i questioned myself "do i actually have HOCD" or am i just telling myself this so i dont have to face the truth?" i dont know. now i feel numb.
Yeah I know what you mean but it is also the OCD messing with you. Making you think that is a a symptom to.
Anonymous182493
Anonymous182533
I basically have thoughts that make no sense. And my mind makes up all weird and crazy scenarios which I indulge with. I can’t stop this. I feel I’m acting very weird and out of character. Getting angry very easily. Example I punched my car windscreen and smashed it. I feel so unreal and detached. I haven’t had a diagnosis or on any sort of treatment. I’m at the end
I understand whenever I get the intense thoughts, I can angry pretty quickly as well. So, I know exactly what you’re experiencing and talking about. Honestly it’s just frustration from constantly fighting and not getting anywhere.
Anonymous182657
i pretty much felt all the symptoms of HOCD for close to 2 weeks this time, in the past ive experienced this before and i did not know there was such disorder. then all of a sudden after i looked into it it felt like it was gone. that scared me more, i questioned myself "do i actually have HOCD" or am i just telling myself this so i dont have to face the truth?" i dont know. now i feel numb.
Anonymous182533
I basically have thoughts that make no sense. And my mind makes up all weird and crazy scenarios which I indulge with. I can’t stop this. I feel I’m acting very weird and out of character. Getting angry very easily. Example I punched my car windscreen and smashed it. I feel so unreal and detached. I haven’t had a diagnosis or on any sort of treatment. I’m at the end
Anonymous182533
OCD intrusive thoughts are killing me
Anonymous182484
Anonymous182286
How do you get used to being in public with your hocd. I've recently starting to do erp but I hate when I have my body twitch involuntarily out of fear.
I think you've just got to remember that at the end of the day your OCD is just trying to get a reaction out of you. You know that there is absolutely nothing to fear and they are just random thoughts you have no control over.