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Anonymous99370 Yeah. Your own always seems way harder
Anonymous99370 In the magical thinking case, it looks really stupid even to me, but when the anxiety is high, it's still hard to disregard it or "take the chance"
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
Yeah. Your own always seems way harder
yh so true, like to me i find ur theme easy and youll find my theme easy, so annoying
Anonymous99370
Anonymous97066
yh so true, like to me i find ur theme easy and youll find my theme easy, so annoying
I think that's why the chat has been helping me. I see the patterns in other people, see what OCD does more clearly, and can see it in myself more
Anonymous99370 It seems so obvious in others but so easy to doubt with yourself
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
I think that's why the chat has been helping me. I see the patterns in other people, see what OCD does more clearly, and can see it in myself more
yh its awful, never knew i could get so unwell
Anonymous99370 It's been hard, especially when it was worse, even just going to the kitchen to get something to eat when the TV is on, because the commercials are obsessed with medical stuff and just hearing certain words used to ruin my whole day
Anonymous99370 So much that I couldn't face doing ERP with it, even though the ERP would just be hearing the word and not responding, because it was just too intense and overwhelming
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
It's been hard, especially when it was worse, even just going to the kitchen to get something to eat when the TV is on, because the commercials are obsessed with medical stuff and just hearing certain words used to ruin my whole day
that sounds awful, it was hard for me to eat and drink because of my toilet contamination and false memory issues
Anonymous99370 It's now at a point where I hear the words and just kind of grit my teeth, annoyed that they have to say it so much (especially this one commercial that spams it like 8 times in a row, lol...), and the thoughts aren't so sticky and pass pretty quickly without even having to try so much
Anonymous99370 Actually I think that commercial says it like 15 times over the whole thing, like it's doing it on purpose
Anonymous99370 So I'm just like, well, it's ERP time I guess
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
So I'm just like, well, it's ERP time I guess
yh just treat it as ERP
Anonymous99370 It also makes things seem related to the theme over the tiniest things, any way it can, and it's too easy to fall into the trap of trying to tell how stupid that is, how it's not even related, how bringing that up isn't helping, or getting into thinking about the thing or wishing nobody would have to have or deal with it
Anonymous99370 Over and over on repeat, saying the same things, and doing it all over again if it wasn't just exactly perfectly right or with the right feelings or with the right nuance or intonation or thoughts
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
It also makes things seem related to the theme over the tiniest things, any way it can, and it's too easy to fall into the trap of trying to tell how stupid that is, how it's not even related, how bringing that up isn't helping, or getting into thinking about the thing or wishing nobody would have to have or deal with it
yh its just so hard
Anonymous99370 There were times where I'd just be doing it for hours straight. Thankfully I'm way past that point now
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
There were times where I'd just be doing it for hours straight. Thankfully I'm way past that point now
thats good, i hope u fully recover
Anonymous99370 You too laugh
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
You too laugh
thanks, im honestly doubtful for myself but wish u the best mate<div>
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Anonymous99370 You'll get it if you keep at it, just have to find the right ERP and keep at it
Anonymous97066
Anonymous99370
You'll get it if you keep at it, just have to find the right ERP and keep at it
hopefully sad
Christa Hi everyone! I might not be on the chat as much today but keep disregarding!
Anonymous99409 Has anyone ever had a feeling that you're comfortable with the thoughts? I've only recently started to have this feeling. I'm in recovery and this feeling keeps coming back. I don't know how to respond to it. It's getting so much harder.
Christa
Anonymous99409
Has anyone ever had a feeling that you're comfortable with the thoughts? I've only recently started to have this feeling. I'm in recovery and this feeling keeps coming back. I don't know how to respond to it. It's getting so much harder.
Hi! So yes this is very normal its just ocd playing tricks on you. I have been through this and so have many others
Anonymous99409
Christa
Hi! So yes this is very normal its just ocd playing tricks on you. I have been through this and so have many others
How do I disregard this feeling? I know this is OCD because this situation has repeated itself over and over. Tip: anything to do with your theme: disregard! But how do I ignore it? I know that's all I have to do
Anonymous99409 I also feel like sometimes I want to think of the thoughts and as a result I end up thinking of them. It's scary. But I know it's probably OCD. But it just won't go away which makes me doubt myself sometimes
Christa
Anonymous99409
I also feel like sometimes I want to think of the thoughts and as a result I end up thinking of them. It's scary. But I know it's probably OCD. But it just won't go away which makes me doubt myself sometimes
This is also really normal too. To disregard the feeling you have to change your view on it. Instead of looking it as oh no this is so real i felt this feeling it must be true just be like ok feels real but its not me at all just another annoying ocd symptom moving on
Anonymous99409
Christa
This is also really normal too. To disregard the feeling you have to change your view on it. Instead of looking it as oh no this is so real i felt this feeling it must be true just be like ok feels real but its not me at all just another annoying ocd symptom moving on
Oh my gosh thank you. I've been so stuck on this. I've gotten good at disregarding thoughts and sensations. But the only thing I'm afraid of now is, I had one time where I had that feeling where I wanted to think of a thought and I did. That was scary. Do I just treat it the same way?
Anonymous99413 I had a quick question; I have hocdc and I keep getting to a good spot and then my
Anonymous99413 brain says “what about this thing you forgot or haven’t thought of?”. Is this something you guys have experienced? It keeps feeling like fuel added to the fire
Anonymous99413 For example I just remembered that I would use to look up girls instagrams and look at their photos (im a girl) out of what I considered to be jealousy and I would, but know my mind is looking at it differently
Anonymous99413 But now*
Anonymous99413 I do think women are pretty, even more than men, but I’ve never been sexually attracted, to me it’s just a matter of aesthetic beauty, and now my brain is telling me I’ll have to leave my boyfriend of almost 6 years and it scares me
Christa
Anonymous99413
I do think women are pretty, even more than men, but I’ve never been sexually attracted, to me it’s just a matter of aesthetic beauty, and now my brain is telling me I’ll have to leave my boyfriend of almost 6 years and it scares me
Hi! I suffered with hocd and recovered and this is all just another way it tries to trick you. Chose to disregard.
Anonymous95362 How to know that how much minutes I am ruminating
Christa
Anonymous95362
How to know that how much minutes I am ruminating
Can you please elaborate on that? I'm not sure what you're asking? If you are talking about tracking you need to start with a set time and everytime you ruminate count the minutes you have been focusing on it.
Christa Everyone battling hocd: Stop ruminating. You seriously will look back on this one day and laugh at how much time you spent worrying. Last year I couldn't sleep because of my hocd thoughts and false memories. For months I spent worrying and overthinking wether this action I did or thought made me gay. With hard recovery work, I slowly got better and learned to leave those questions alone.
Christa
Christa
Everyone battling hocd: Stop ruminating. You seriously will look back on this one day and laugh at how much time you spent worrying. Last year I couldn't sleep because of my hocd thoughts and false memories. For months I spent worrying and overthinking wether this action I did or thought made me gay. With hard recovery work, I slowly got better and learned to leave those questions alone.
They aren't you none of this has to do with you. Ocd just latched onto it cause relationships and sexuality is apart of what you care about. Even if you don't care about sexuality that much, it's still ocd. Don't fall for the tricks
Anonymous99421 Thank you so much
Christa Of course no problem. You seriously will be okay. What you are going through sounds like exactly what I went through and it's just trying to get a reaction out of you. Only look at it as that don't be like but I had this thought I had this feeling I had this image. It doesn't matter
Anonymous95362
Christa
Can you please elaborate on that? I'm not sure what you're asking? If you are talking about tracking you need to start with a set time and everytime you ruminate count the minutes you have been focusing on it.
I am asking that how can I know that how much minutes I am ruminating because it all is going in my head
Christa
Anonymous95362
I am asking that how can I know that how much minutes I am ruminating because it all is going in my head
Oh okay. So basically if you are focusing on the thought at all in your head and giving it negative attention or any attention at all that's rumination. So start at lets say 12:00 and be like for the next 5 minutes I'm gonna focus on this activity and just say whatever when the thought/feeling/image/sensation pops up. If you start to fall into it and worrying about it and trying to figure it out
Christa
Christa
Oh okay. So basically if you are focusing on the thought at all in your head and giving it negative attention or any attention at all that's rumination. So start at lets say 12:00 and be like for the next 5 minutes I'm gonna focus on this activity and just say whatever when the thought/feeling/image/sensation pops up. If you start to fall into it and worrying about it and trying to figure it out
that's rumination. So after you go 5 minutes and lets say you accidentally fell into it and after saying whatever to the thoughts until 12:02 you start to go but what if this isn't ocd and start to worry again. Then you have to pick it up and be like no just ocd thought still focusing on this activity and figure out how long you fell into it.
Christa
Christa
that's rumination. So after you go 5 minutes and lets say you accidentally fell into it and after saying whatever to the thoughts until 12:02 you start to go but what if this isn't ocd and start to worry again. Then you have to pick it up and be like no just ocd thought still focusing on this activity and figure out how long you fell into it.
Don't overcomplicate it. If you are giving it any attention in your brain that's rumination. Track the time you give it attention or think about it or if that's too hard give yourself a limit for how long you can think about it. You know so give yourself a worry time but make sure you disregard it otherwise and change your reaction as much as possible
Christa
Anonymous99377
Thank you for the answers! Im also curious whether your OCD made you feel not quite like yourself? Cuz the themes are like the opposite of what you believe in, so you dont even know what you are as a person anymore
Yes ocd can very much do this. It happens to me all the time. Its just because ocd can give alot of weird thoughts/feelings/urges/images/sensations which make you feel not like yourself
Anonymous95415 I also feel like a different person. Like out of my body with all these urges and thoughts I have a hard time even knowing if I'm ruminating or not
Christa
Anonymous95415
I also feel like a different person. Like out of my body with all these urges and thoughts I have a hard time even knowing if I'm ruminating or not
This is called dissociation. It happens alot in ocd. If you want more info you can google dissociation or dissociation in ocd. It is extremely common. Our bodies and brains do it as a response to fear/trauma to protect us.
Anonymous94079 Hi Christa,u helped me a lot yesterday. I took your advice and even though I felt worse, I did what you told and I was like whatever and didn't repeat myself (maybe I did once or twice) but I was feeling victorious until today. I'm having a bad time and I'm repeating an activity again and again like in a loop
Anonymous94079 I was doing good till now now I feel so sad. I don't know how to break out of this loop
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untitled poem i wrote about my OCD monster.

you’re the weight on my chest

when i wake up.

you’re the sick pit in my stomach

i just can’t shake.

you’re the racing heart,

twitching eye,

trembling fingertips

and

constant doubt.

you’re the nagging voice,

the distraction,

empty lungs,

the one

who consumes

caffeine for breakfast

and my deepest fears

for dessert.

you’re the old friend

i never wanted to know

in the first place,

but somehow,

have become

a familiar face

who i know

will always

be

by
my side.

Excellent and true, but  it doesn't need to always be by your side.