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needyou In my day.. But I do them with the feeling of sadness. I feel sad when I have thoughts in the background of my mind.. This is the difficult part of recovery
User2525 Hey can somebody check my absurd theme in other types
User2525 Can someone chak it and reply please
Joe Its funny on this forum- Everyone comes, writes something, and when they dont get the answer they want to hear or dont get re assurance you come back as guests or pretend to be other guests and try THE SAME QUESTION again. I had a post about HOCD which was viewed almost 300 times in 3 days yet every other post as 3-10 views? Everyone is here for re-assurance and are not working towards Recovery!
Seamstress That's not completely true. I know what you mean, but I am here to help in my recovery as well as to encourage others. By the way how do I see how many views are on a post. Not aware of that feature. My main complaint with this forum is all the spam on it. Hard to find the real posts on forum.
Seamstress Never mind. I see the views now. Wasn't looking in the right place.
Hoping True, really hard to find the real posts
Hoping Hey everyone, does anyone have any suggestions or can share the morning routine you use during the weekends? I have severe OCD especially on weekend mornings, even if the rest of my week has been relatively okay.
User2525 I have an unusual theme can someone reply to it it's in other types of ocd category
andrey_m Can someone help me, please? I need to hear your opinion. Is there someone who has overcome false memory ocd?
Amando Hey i'm struggling with real event ocd. I've had every theme of ocd and did erp and felt better. But now this real event ocd is bothering. It started when i've searched for a girl username on google who sends nudes the i've lied to her and show her some pictures of private part which i downloaded on google.we were s*x chatting then she found out and told but i deactivated my account now i'm afraid
Amando Now i'm afraid that i commited a crime and i also get thoughts that she might have commited suicide and i get urges to hand myselft to the police
Amando Can someone help me?
User2525 It feels loneöy with a theme that nobody else has sometimes i wish i would have a more common theme
User2525 Please somebody answer
User2525 My recovery would be so much eaaier
User2525 Please
User2525 Im so sorry for spam
User2525 I wont put a message for a while just please help im actively doing erp but theres this one question that i haven't got answered
User2525 Actually nevermind that might be reassuranse
Amando
User2525
Actually nevermind that might be reassuranse
Yeah man keep doing erp
User2525 You can just casually check it out but not give reassurase i think it would be okay if people were more aware of absurd themes
User2525
Amando
Yeah man keep doing erp
Because yes
User2525 I justhad a bad daywith erp
User2525 At öeast i realised it now ps oh im filling the chat again sorry
Amando
User2525
At öeast i realised it now ps oh im filling the chat again sorry
No that's fine man i understand you
Amando Did you read my post?
Amando Do you think mine also is ocd?
User2525 Wait one sec i'll read it
User2525 Hmm i get that i once had slight real event ocd (i've had many themes) at least it's more common than mine just do erp no matter what
User2525 Could you read the post about my avsurd theme don't give reassurance just give me a honest opinion and tell me whta you think
User2525 About it
User2525 Abd i absolutely think your theme is ocd
User2525 *and
Jessica How much today
Jessica How much your daily now
Jessica U happy together all day none stop
Jessica Hola
Powerful
needyou
In my day.. But I do them with the feeling of sadness. I feel sad when I have thoughts in the background of my mind.. This is the difficult part of recovery
Oh, totally, the sadness or fear was always in the background for me. But now I am so so much better. you are doing well if you are keeping yourself busy. The sadness will pass, believe me. Just keeping going! Track your rumination. It worked for me, it will work for you, don't give up
Amando
User2525
Could you read the post about my avsurd theme don't give reassurance just give me a honest opinion and tell me whta you think
Where is your post?
Bec1990
Powerful
Oh, totally, the sadness or fear was always in the background for me. But now I am so so much better. you are doing well if you are keeping yourself busy. The sadness will pass, believe me. Just keeping going! Track your rumination. It worked for me, it will work for you, don't give up
Hi all
Kevin Le
Bec1990
Hi all
how did u track ur rumination and im getting better but i sometimes feel like i dont wanna get better it hurts but im making slow progress im becoming an ea and im worried im not set for the job. - 7787754018 fongo
User2525 There is my post
User2525 My theme
User2525 Please somebody reply there
User2525 I have never got an ansver from somebody that knows about ocd
User2525 Sorry for filling the chat again i can wait for an answer i just calmed down but the answer would still be very good

I think I have OCD but I need reassurance (lol)

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Hello! I am new here and I’m so happy I finally found a place where people with OCD come together to talk about their experiences. More about me: I have major depressive disorder and suffer from complex trauma and anxiety. I am in my late twenties. In the last 6 months, I have been wondering if I also have OCD. Specifically sexual orientation OCD or HOOCD. Not sure which yet. For the last 3 years I have been questioning my sexuality, but I can’t seem to get over it nor do I ever find an answer, even if meet with and talk to new people every day. I am chronically indecisive when it comes to my sexual orientation and I fear that I will never know what it is. I ruminate over it on a daily basis. I am in deep distress and cannot stop obsessing over this. Ok, here are what I believe are the symptoms of HOOCD and/or SOOCD. I’m not sure which one I would fall under but here goes.

Unwanted/intrusive thoughts: I would say I have obsessive thoughts. Sometimes I feel they are unwanted. Other times I do not. I don’t think my obsessive thoughts are about fearing being gay – it’s more wondering if I’m really gay.. It’s more trying to figure out if that’s really me, and obsessing over that. Are my thoughts/fantasies of the same sex intrusive or genuine? Are these thoughts telling me to look further or should I just ignore them and treat them that they don’t mean anything, that they are just thoughts and nothing worth looking into? Even though I have dated the same sex but was never successful or got anywhere, does that mean I am not gay and I am just experimenting, or have I just not found the right person yet.

Doubts: I am very doubtful of my sexuality and it’s very distressing to me. Even if I talk to people and they help me sort out my thoughts, I am never going to get over it or get the answer to it. I am desperately searching for a solid answer if I am gay or straight. More focus on answering if I am gay. I am not just searching for a solid answer if I am straight.

Compulsions: My compulsions are in the form of checking if I am gay (masturbating, thinking of past situations with the same sex, checking to see how I behaved or felt around them; checking to see if specific people of the same sex I paid attention to were gay feelings or just “girl crushes”. I am also chbut also avoiding anything lgbt. Stop dating. Nervous around other people. These kind of conflict with one another I think because I want to believe that I am gay but my thoughts keep sending me conflicting messages: you’re gay-no you’re not (x10 per day)

Attraction: Am I attracted to them or attracted to their energy or attracted to them platonically. Do I want the same sex or do these “attractions” not mean anything. Is my nervousness and anxiety around certain ppl of the same sex just because they are intimidating/I’m an anxious person, or am I truly attracted to them. Do I actively avoid dating the same sex or even talking about the same sex, because I am not interested or am I not accepting myself? Is my jealous/envy when certain ppl of the same sex get into another relationship due to me being interested in them or me being sad that I am not in a relationship? Am I actually attracted to the opposite sex because when I went on a date with the same sex, I didn’t desire them. I can’t remember who I was attracted to, if I was at all. Why can’t I confirm any previous attractions that I might have had?

History of self-discovery: So far, it’s been 3 years of questioning and going on dates, meeting new people, and I still don’t know. My history of questioning is also a constant up and down. When it should go more linearly. When actual lgbt people realize they are lgbt, it’s more of a gradual process for them. Questioning – Realizing – Maybe denial/doubting – Acceptance. They learn new things about themselves and their attraction as time goes on. For me: Questioning --- I think I’m gay --- Denial/or doubt --- I think I’m straight --- Questioning --- I think I’m gay again. It never ends. I can’t accept something I don’t know. It’s like I’ve made progress… a few weeks later, I’m back to square one.

If you've read this far, thank you for listening. Haha.

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Sorry I didn't mention this. I am female. 🙂