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Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
Yes yes yes everything in that nature is still ocd trust me ur not alone and u can recover
I am lesbian and I get images of oral s*x with men in my head everytime I walk by a male person.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
can someone help me?
Yes of course what is ur problem?
Anonymous62972 33 And then I want to know if I would actually want it/ do it
Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
Yes of course what is ur problem?
I am lesbian and I get images of oral s*x with men in my head everytime I walk by a male person.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
I am lesbian and I get images of oral s*x with men in my head everytime I walk by a male person.
Thats exactly what hocd does. I am a straight female and have only ever been attracted to men but for some reason i would be next to a girl and get these weird sexual images about her. It is so so common u have no idea. At the end of the day though our thoughts mean nothing. We are meant to have junk thoughts and weird thoughts are natural. I used to think hocd thoughts were the end of the world
Anonymous67461
Anonymous67461
Thats exactly what hocd does. I am a straight female and have only ever been attracted to men but for some reason i would be next to a girl and get these weird sexual images about her. It is so so common u have no idea. At the end of the day though our thoughts mean nothing. We are meant to have junk thoughts and weird thoughts are natural. I used to think hocd thoughts were the end of the world
But now i brush these thoughts off like nothing. Analyzing and wondering if u actually like it is all ocd
Anonymous71635
Anonymous67461
Also once u disregard little by little u will feel better and look back and be like oh yea that was just ocd.
Thank you this helps me so much
Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
But now i brush these thoughts off like nothing. Analyzing and wondering if u actually like it is all ocd
But why can’t I answer if I would want to do it?
Anonymous62972 I mean if I was a real lesbian I would say immediately „No I would never do that“
Anonymous62972 You know what I mean?
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
But why can’t I answer if I would want to do it?
So basically if u actually wanted to do it u would not spend this much time thinking about it. When i was doing exposures during recovery i watching coming out videos that i avoided watching before and one girl said that she would like to fantasize about girls and then be like i will get that one day and forget abt it until she wanted to fantasize again. Whereas ppl with ocd ruminate about it
Anonymous65599 how I hate OCD
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
You know what I mean?
Yea i know what u mean. U have to understand ocd controls alot of your reactions. However it makes u feel is not actually u. Its the same thing where how some straight girls would be like oh yea i wouldnt mind having s*x with another women and they still identify as straight. Sexuality isnt something most ppl overthink unless u have ocd
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
how I hate OCD
Me too
Anonymous65599 I've watched thousand Ali's videos and I'm still deep in magical thinking ocd. 20 years of an absolute nightmare.
Anonymous65023 I wanted to ask, though ive worried about quite a few themes for short whiles in the past, I have only a couple main ones, and my brain keeps telling me that because they seem more possible (common is a better word) than the other ones and because i've stressed for longer on those subjects in particular. how can I shift that thinking?
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I've watched thousand Ali's videos and I'm still deep in magical thinking ocd. 20 years of an absolute nightmare.
Ok so if u have been 20 years suffering it is not going to go away in a few months. I would suggest getting personal sessions with ali or an ocd coach. If u cant then try to not do the things your ocd is telling you. Take a leap of faith and dont fall into ocd tricks.
Anonymous65023
Anonymous65023
I wanted to ask, though ive worried about quite a few themes for short whiles in the past, I have only a couple main ones, and my brain keeps telling me that because they seem more possible (common is a better word) than the other ones and because i've stressed for longer on those subjects in particular. how can I shift that thinking?
sorry I messed that up, the worry is that im in denial because they seem to more common worries
Anonymous65599
Anonymous67461
Ok so if u have been 20 years suffering it is not going to go away in a few months. I would suggest getting personal sessions with ali or an ocd coach. If u cant then try to not do the things your ocd is telling you. Take a leap of faith and dont fall into ocd tricks.
thanks for support. unfortunately, I can't afford sessions with Ali, because it's very expensive.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
I wanted to ask, though ive worried about quite a few themes for short whiles in the past, I have only a couple main ones, and my brain keeps telling me that because they seem more possible (common is a better word) than the other ones and because i've stressed for longer on those subjects in particular. how can I shift that thinking?
I have suffered from many themes as well and something to shift your thinking is remembering that stressing on any subject regardless is still u worried about it and showing your brain that you fear somethings. Dont listen to any of what ocd tries to tell u. Changing your response to thoughts about your themes can help alot
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
thanks for support. unfortunately, I can't afford sessions with Ali, because it's very expensive.
I know it is so hard to get treatment. I have heard NOCD is really affordable or better help is good
Anonymous65023
Anonymous67461
I have suffered from many themes as well and something to shift your thinking is remembering that stressing on any subject regardless is still u worried about it and showing your brain that you fear somethings. Dont listen to any of what ocd tries to tell u. Changing your response to thoughts about your themes can help alot
thank you, i'm really trying, I went to a psychiatrist yesterday and I dont think he fully understood my problem, though he was supporting and sweet. I think part of him thinks its denial, though that could be me jumping to conclusions
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
sorry I messed that up, the worry is that im in denial because they seem to more common worries
That's just ocd as well. Make the choice to treat it all as ocd because coming from an outside view as someone who suffers from ocd i can relate and see that you have ocd
Anonymous65599 I decided to make musical videos on youtube because I'm constantly alone, I don't have friends, maybe I will find somebody and we will make music together or just drink beer on skype lol
Anonymous65599
Anonymous65023
Anonymous67461
That's just ocd as well. Make the choice to treat it all as ocd because coming from an outside view as someone who suffers from ocd i can relate and see that you have ocd
thank you I really appreciate that, ive been rumintating 5-8 hours a day for three months (not mentioning before that) and its so difficult
Anonymous65599 oh! I'm feeling guilty that I posted it here
Anonymous65023
Anonymous65599
that's awesome!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
thank you, i'm really trying, I went to a psychiatrist yesterday and I dont think he fully understood my problem, though he was supporting and sweet. I think part of him thinks its denial, though that could be me jumping to conclusions
Of course! Let me tell u something. Even some psychatrists are not educated on ocd. This girl on tiktok it took her years to find a therapist because all the ones she went to were uneducated. Make sure ur therapist is aware of all the subtypes. Also dont believe him or let him get to u he is just another uneducated person!
Anonymous65599 guys I can't express how hard it was to f**kin' upload it on youtube because of obsessions
Anonymous65023
Anonymous67461
Of course! Let me tell u something. Even some psychatrists are not educated on ocd. This girl on tiktok it took her years to find a therapist because all the ones she went to were uneducated. Make sure ur therapist is aware of all the subtypes. Also dont believe him or let him get to u he is just another uneducated person!
thanks, i'll try to keep it in mind!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
thank you I really appreciate that, ive been rumintating 5-8 hours a day for three months (not mentioning before that) and its so difficult
I know how it feels. From july-september all of my days were spent anxiety ridden and ruminating about ocd. I can say that i am in a much better place now.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
thanks, i'll try to keep it in mind!
No problem!
Anonymous65599 I mean I feel guilty cause people talkin' about ocd here and I look like a motherf**ker who speaks about his video, but I'm an ocd sufferer too
Anonymous65599
Anonymous65023
that's awesome!
thank you!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I mean I feel guilty cause people talkin' about ocd here and I look like a motherf**ker who speaks about his video, but I'm an ocd sufferer too
Anyone is welcome here hahaha! But seriously ur videos could be a good distraction for some
Anonymous65599
Anonymous67461
Anyone is welcome here hahaha! But seriously ur videos could be a good distraction for some
thank you!
Anonymous65023 I'm kind of new to this forum, ive never really been on an online forum, so helloooo! smile
Anonymous65599 I'm drinkin beer to relax, almost every day I feel insanely exhausted but I don't wanna die, I wanna kill at least magical thinking
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
I'm kind of new to this forum, ive never really been on an online forum, so helloooo! smile
Hi!
Anonymous65599
Anonymous65023
I'm kind of new to this forum, ive never really been on an online forum, so helloooo! smile
hi! welcome to the forum!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I'm drinkin beer to relax, almost every day I feel insanely exhausted but I don't wanna die, I wanna kill at least magical thinking
The first step to solving your problem is stop drinking beer to relax. Using substances to relax urself from ocd is not helpful and continues the cycle. To kill magical thinking u must stop doing compulsions. Sit with your anxiety and dont listen to when your brain tells u to do something.
Anonymous65599 I don't drink beer every day, I am not able to tolerate this pain in my soul and incredible headaches, it feels like my brain is a big swallen piece of meet
Anonymous67461 If anyone is wondering i have recovered from HOCD, TOCD, and am in recovery from POCD from ali's videos so feel free to ask questions.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I don't drink beer every day, I am not able to tolerate this pain in my soul and incredible headaches, it feels like my brain is a big swallen piece of meet
Yea i understand ur pain just dont make it a habit
Anonymous71643
Anonymous67461
If anyone is wondering i have recovered from HOCD, TOCD, and am in recovery from POCD from ali's videos so feel free to ask questions.
How do you disregard the thoughts because i always try to and they stick right onto my brain and i can’t think of anything else
Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
Yea i know what u mean. U have to understand ocd controls alot of your reactions. However it makes u feel is not actually u. Its the same thing where how some straight girls would be like oh yea i wouldnt mind having s*x with another women and they still identify as straight. Sexuality isnt something most ppl overthink unless u have ocd
does this mean the thoughts are a sign that I want s*x with men?
Anonymous69565 Hey 5599 I subscribed to your channel smile
Anonymous69565 Good luck to your channel. And I wanna tell you something last. We are humans and thoughts are not something magic that can hurt someone. Are only thoughts who lives in our minds. Jesus can save you if you want it
Anonymous71217 My heart goes out to all you OCD sufferers here, it is truly difficult and can be debilitating. I hope everyone can get the recovery they deserve and finally live a life of ease.
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Hi you guys! 

First of all, thank you to everyone who’s shared their stories of recovery and everything that they’re going through. It’s super helpful. 
I’ve been dealing with this for almost 4 months now and I just had a couple questions. 
When I’m half asleep ( and half awake ), I get these random images in my head where I see myself imagining a girls butt ( I am a girl ). I get so much anxiety when this happens because I really don’t want to be gay at all but I can’t help but wonder why I’m imagining a girls butt in the first place. It’s so frustrating to me and I just want this all to go away. 
I’m also dating someone at the moment and he’s an amazing guy. Sometimes when I tell him I love him my brain twists it around and asks me if I really do love him or if I’m lying to him ( because I keep thinking I might be gay ). 

Does anyone else feel like this? Please help! 

Hi there,

 

First off having sexual thoughts about the same sex is normal. The issue you’re having is that you are ascribing weight the thoughts. 

Something I realized going through recovery, I’m still in recovery, is those ocd thoughts elicit anxiety. That tells me those are ocd thoughts and not my real feelings. Because, how can something you like bring anxiety? Those are not your real thoughts. So, I no longer fight or deny them. I simply let them be and even agree with them. I’ll say, yeah, that’s a handsome man. Then I just let it go and slowly the anxiety starts to drop. 

So, as Ali would say, if those thoughts pop in disregard them. Take the power back by saying things like at this moment, there is anxiety. Don’t say I have anxiety. Do not identify with something you are not. Put some distance between who you are and what anxiety is. At least that works for me. You can recover but you have to want to do the work and stand up to the anxiety.

 

If I can do you, you can too. 

good luck 

 

Its typical OCD- If you keep giving it attention and give into these thoughts- it will get worse! so you need to act now!

WHat happens is OCD knows that the topic and or issue bothers you. When you first wake up in the morning or when your going to bed- your brain is in a theta state which is more susceptible to intrusive thoughts- Once you freak out it flags that thought and brings it back on repeat. Thoughts are unfortunately there- We cant do anything about them- however its when you take them seriously- That is the problem!

You must disregard it- It goes away- Believe me.

If anyone on this forum has gone to hell and back with this OCD....  its me!

Remember- People are born that way- They do not change, they do not turn- They are born that way- Full stop end of story.

Hello Denjin and Joe, 

 

it was me who had uploaded the above post. I just Wasn’t logged in at the time. 

I want to thank you both for taking out the time and responding to my worry. It really means a lot. It’s been a little over a month since I posted this and I feel like I am doing better. I’m able to disregard and not ruminate. 

what worries me is, even though I’ve been disregarding and even though I don’t ruminate about it as much - I still keep checking all the time. It’s become an involuntary thing to check, whenever I’m in public. Another thing is that even though I have been actively trying to disregard, it’s been almost two months now and the thoughts are still there and they still cause anxiety. Is there anything wrong I’m doing here? 

any and all advice is accepted. Thank you so much again and more power to both of you! We will recover! 

Quote from Tlulla26 on April 5, 2021, 9:53 pm

Hello Denjin and Joe, 

 

it was me who had uploaded the above post. I just Wasn’t logged in at the time. 

I want to thank you both for taking out the time and responding to my worry. It really means a lot. It’s been a little over a month since I posted this and I feel like I am doing better. I’m able to disregard and not ruminate. 

what worries me is, even though I’ve been disregarding and even though I don’t ruminate about it as much - I still keep checking all the time. It’s become an involuntary thing to check, whenever I’m in public. Another thing is that even though I have been actively trying to disregard, it’s been almost two months now and the thoughts are still there and they still cause anxiety. Is there anything wrong I’m doing here? 

any and all advice is accepted. Thank you so much again and more power to both of you! We will recover! 

The issue is exactly what you said- You keep doing rituals and rumination or compulsions. For as long as you continue that behavior- OCD will be around. When you stop.. OCD starves out and goes away.

 

Its your choice to ignore the thoughts. You have no control of what thought is coming in- HOWEVER the response and reaction IS ALL YOU!

STOP IT ALL!

Right. That makes sense. Thank you. 

Just so I’m clear, the fact that I’m checking is the ritual? Am I right? So that’s something I need to stop doing. Yes? This is just so I understand and work on it better. 

thank you again! 

Last time i will re-assure you... Yes- STOP IT ALL. That and anything relating to it- is all OCD or a mechanism of OCD.

 

STOP IT ALL! 

Im here to push people over the recovery line- i am not here to re-assure! Just so we are clear.

okay great. Thank you!