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Anonymous62972
I mean sexual scenes
Yes yes yes everything in that nature is still ocd trust me ur not alone and u can recover
Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
Yes yes yes everything in that nature is still ocd trust me ur not alone and u can recover
I am lesbian and I get images of oral s*x with men in my head everytime I walk by a male person.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
can someone help me?
Yes of course what is ur problem?
Anonymous62972 33 And then I want to know if I would actually want it/ do it
Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
Yes of course what is ur problem?
I am lesbian and I get images of oral s*x with men in my head everytime I walk by a male person.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
I am lesbian and I get images of oral s*x with men in my head everytime I walk by a male person.
Thats exactly what hocd does. I am a straight female and have only ever been attracted to men but for some reason i would be next to a girl and get these weird sexual images about her. It is so so common u have no idea. At the end of the day though our thoughts mean nothing. We are meant to have junk thoughts and weird thoughts are natural. I used to think hocd thoughts were the end of the world
Anonymous67461
Anonymous67461
Thats exactly what hocd does. I am a straight female and have only ever been attracted to men but for some reason i would be next to a girl and get these weird sexual images about her. It is so so common u have no idea. At the end of the day though our thoughts mean nothing. We are meant to have junk thoughts and weird thoughts are natural. I used to think hocd thoughts were the end of the world
But now i brush these thoughts off like nothing. Analyzing and wondering if u actually like it is all ocd
Anonymous71635
Anonymous67461
Also once u disregard little by little u will feel better and look back and be like oh yea that was just ocd.
Thank you this helps me so much
Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
But now i brush these thoughts off like nothing. Analyzing and wondering if u actually like it is all ocd
But why can’t I answer if I would want to do it?
Anonymous62972 I mean if I was a real lesbian I would say immediately „No I would never do that“
Anonymous62972 You know what I mean?
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
But why can’t I answer if I would want to do it?
So basically if u actually wanted to do it u would not spend this much time thinking about it. When i was doing exposures during recovery i watching coming out videos that i avoided watching before and one girl said that she would like to fantasize about girls and then be like i will get that one day and forget abt it until she wanted to fantasize again. Whereas ppl with ocd ruminate about it
Anonymous65599 how I hate OCD
Anonymous67461
Anonymous62972
You know what I mean?
Yea i know what u mean. U have to understand ocd controls alot of your reactions. However it makes u feel is not actually u. Its the same thing where how some straight girls would be like oh yea i wouldnt mind having s*x with another women and they still identify as straight. Sexuality isnt something most ppl overthink unless u have ocd
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
how I hate OCD
Me too
Anonymous65599 I've watched thousand Ali's videos and I'm still deep in magical thinking ocd. 20 years of an absolute nightmare.
Anonymous65023 I wanted to ask, though ive worried about quite a few themes for short whiles in the past, I have only a couple main ones, and my brain keeps telling me that because they seem more possible (common is a better word) than the other ones and because i've stressed for longer on those subjects in particular. how can I shift that thinking?
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I've watched thousand Ali's videos and I'm still deep in magical thinking ocd. 20 years of an absolute nightmare.
Ok so if u have been 20 years suffering it is not going to go away in a few months. I would suggest getting personal sessions with ali or an ocd coach. If u cant then try to not do the things your ocd is telling you. Take a leap of faith and dont fall into ocd tricks.
Anonymous65023
Anonymous65023
I wanted to ask, though ive worried about quite a few themes for short whiles in the past, I have only a couple main ones, and my brain keeps telling me that because they seem more possible (common is a better word) than the other ones and because i've stressed for longer on those subjects in particular. how can I shift that thinking?
sorry I messed that up, the worry is that im in denial because they seem to more common worries
Anonymous65599
Anonymous67461
Ok so if u have been 20 years suffering it is not going to go away in a few months. I would suggest getting personal sessions with ali or an ocd coach. If u cant then try to not do the things your ocd is telling you. Take a leap of faith and dont fall into ocd tricks.
thanks for support. unfortunately, I can't afford sessions with Ali, because it's very expensive.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
I wanted to ask, though ive worried about quite a few themes for short whiles in the past, I have only a couple main ones, and my brain keeps telling me that because they seem more possible (common is a better word) than the other ones and because i've stressed for longer on those subjects in particular. how can I shift that thinking?
I have suffered from many themes as well and something to shift your thinking is remembering that stressing on any subject regardless is still u worried about it and showing your brain that you fear somethings. Dont listen to any of what ocd tries to tell u. Changing your response to thoughts about your themes can help alot
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
thanks for support. unfortunately, I can't afford sessions with Ali, because it's very expensive.
I know it is so hard to get treatment. I have heard NOCD is really affordable or better help is good
Anonymous65023
Anonymous67461
I have suffered from many themes as well and something to shift your thinking is remembering that stressing on any subject regardless is still u worried about it and showing your brain that you fear somethings. Dont listen to any of what ocd tries to tell u. Changing your response to thoughts about your themes can help alot
thank you, i'm really trying, I went to a psychiatrist yesterday and I dont think he fully understood my problem, though he was supporting and sweet. I think part of him thinks its denial, though that could be me jumping to conclusions
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
sorry I messed that up, the worry is that im in denial because they seem to more common worries
That's just ocd as well. Make the choice to treat it all as ocd because coming from an outside view as someone who suffers from ocd i can relate and see that you have ocd
Anonymous65599 I decided to make musical videos on youtube because I'm constantly alone, I don't have friends, maybe I will find somebody and we will make music together or just drink beer on skype lol
Anonymous65599
Anonymous65023
Anonymous67461
That's just ocd as well. Make the choice to treat it all as ocd because coming from an outside view as someone who suffers from ocd i can relate and see that you have ocd
thank you I really appreciate that, ive been rumintating 5-8 hours a day for three months (not mentioning before that) and its so difficult
Anonymous65599 oh! I'm feeling guilty that I posted it here
Anonymous65023
Anonymous65599
that's awesome!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
thank you, i'm really trying, I went to a psychiatrist yesterday and I dont think he fully understood my problem, though he was supporting and sweet. I think part of him thinks its denial, though that could be me jumping to conclusions
Of course! Let me tell u something. Even some psychatrists are not educated on ocd. This girl on tiktok it took her years to find a therapist because all the ones she went to were uneducated. Make sure ur therapist is aware of all the subtypes. Also dont believe him or let him get to u he is just another uneducated person!
Anonymous65599 guys I can't express how hard it was to f**kin' upload it on youtube because of obsessions
Anonymous65023
Anonymous67461
Of course! Let me tell u something. Even some psychatrists are not educated on ocd. This girl on tiktok it took her years to find a therapist because all the ones she went to were uneducated. Make sure ur therapist is aware of all the subtypes. Also dont believe him or let him get to u he is just another uneducated person!
thanks, i'll try to keep it in mind!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
thank you I really appreciate that, ive been rumintating 5-8 hours a day for three months (not mentioning before that) and its so difficult
I know how it feels. From july-september all of my days were spent anxiety ridden and ruminating about ocd. I can say that i am in a much better place now.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
thanks, i'll try to keep it in mind!
No problem!
Anonymous65599 I mean I feel guilty cause people talkin' about ocd here and I look like a motherf**ker who speaks about his video, but I'm an ocd sufferer too
Anonymous65599
Anonymous65023
that's awesome!
thank you!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I mean I feel guilty cause people talkin' about ocd here and I look like a motherf**ker who speaks about his video, but I'm an ocd sufferer too
Anyone is welcome here hahaha! But seriously ur videos could be a good distraction for some
Anonymous65599
Anonymous67461
Anyone is welcome here hahaha! But seriously ur videos could be a good distraction for some
thank you!
Anonymous65023 I'm kind of new to this forum, ive never really been on an online forum, so helloooo! smile
Anonymous65599 I'm drinkin beer to relax, almost every day I feel insanely exhausted but I don't wanna die, I wanna kill at least magical thinking
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65023
I'm kind of new to this forum, ive never really been on an online forum, so helloooo! smile
Hi!
Anonymous65599
Anonymous65023
I'm kind of new to this forum, ive never really been on an online forum, so helloooo! smile
hi! welcome to the forum!
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I'm drinkin beer to relax, almost every day I feel insanely exhausted but I don't wanna die, I wanna kill at least magical thinking
The first step to solving your problem is stop drinking beer to relax. Using substances to relax urself from ocd is not helpful and continues the cycle. To kill magical thinking u must stop doing compulsions. Sit with your anxiety and dont listen to when your brain tells u to do something.
Anonymous65599 I don't drink beer every day, I am not able to tolerate this pain in my soul and incredible headaches, it feels like my brain is a big swallen piece of meet
Anonymous67461 If anyone is wondering i have recovered from HOCD, TOCD, and am in recovery from POCD from ali's videos so feel free to ask questions.
Anonymous67461
Anonymous65599
I don't drink beer every day, I am not able to tolerate this pain in my soul and incredible headaches, it feels like my brain is a big swallen piece of meet
Yea i understand ur pain just dont make it a habit
Anonymous71643
Anonymous67461
If anyone is wondering i have recovered from HOCD, TOCD, and am in recovery from POCD from ali's videos so feel free to ask questions.
How do you disregard the thoughts because i always try to and they stick right onto my brain and i can’t think of anything else
Anonymous62972
Anonymous67461
Yea i know what u mean. U have to understand ocd controls alot of your reactions. However it makes u feel is not actually u. Its the same thing where how some straight girls would be like oh yea i wouldnt mind having s*x with another women and they still identify as straight. Sexuality isnt something most ppl overthink unless u have ocd
does this mean the thoughts are a sign that I want s*x with men?
Anonymous69565 Hey 5599 I subscribed to your channel smile
Anonymous69565 Good luck to your channel. And I wanna tell you something last. We are humans and thoughts are not something magic that can hurt someone. Are only thoughts who lives in our minds. Jesus can save you if you want it
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Well, I guess I'm first then 😀

My idea is to continue using my journal for tracking day to day compulsions, exposures etc and to post a general overview of my progress (or lack off) once or twice a week on here, and if I need help or advice to ask the community on the main contamination page. I hope this is an acceptable way to report my ups and downs. 

On the main page someone has kindly taken the time and trouble to provide me with a detailed roadmap,  which if I follow will lead me out of this nightmare situation. After 19 years I'm really drinking in the last chance saloon now,  I have no other choice but to follow it.

Finally, many thanks to Ali for creating this forum (not to mention all of her videos) and many thanks to all the people that have already given me help and advice on the main page, especially the author of said roadmap. See you in a few days time...

Well, so far so good. I've been doing medium level exposures every day (taps, door handles etc), and 9 out of 10 times I have resisted washing afterwards. The most success I have had however,  has been substantially reducing the amount of time I spend ruminating after an OCD incident. I never quite realized just how much time I wasted going over and over an event,  it was a case of not being able to see the woods for the trees. For my covid-19 worries, I still find myself holding my breath quite often as I pass people,  so I will start going into town more often where it's much busier, where it will be impossible to hold my breath very often without passing out.

I haven't yet had another food or parcel delivery, they come next week. That's going to be a major challenge for me. As I will be going into town more often,  my other major challenge (with regards to my HIV OCD) will be walking past Africans,  especially difficult for me when out shopping. 

All in all I'm pleased with my progress so far, good luck to everyone else battling OCD, see you in a few days time...

Good for you. Keep it up.

Hello everyone, I'm just giving a little update on my progress.

Exposures for my HIV OCD are going according to plan (for a change!). I can now open and close my garden gate just several hours after a delivery has been. I know that may not sound like a big deal, but previously I would wait days, and even weeks before I was able to leave. This is major progress for me :-)I will try to reduce the time even further.

I'm also going to try eating lunch in a multicultural town next, I have to get used to being around people of all backgrounds and persuasions again,  so fingers crossed.

With regards to my fear of covid. Perhaps because it's a relatively new aspect of my OCD, reducing the fear hasn't been to difficult for me. I've come to realise that this isn't the plague we're talking about,  for most people under the age of sixty, the symptoms are similar to flu. A pain in the a$$, but not the end of the world.

Finally I'll just wish all the other OCD warriors well. We'll get there in the end 🙂

Just a quick update on my battles with OCD. The biggest challenge I overcame was buying a sandwich in town (even that's been difficult in the past) and eating it on a park bench as people of different creeds and colours passed by. The most off putting thing was the people that coughed as they walked by and never even covered their mouths as they did so. Haven't they ever heard of Covid-19?

The one unexpected challenge I failed this week was collecting my groceries at the door from an African delivery driver. I made him put the food in the garden whilst I hid indoors. I then threw all the fresh food away as my OCD assured me that he was HIV positive. He also arrived first thing in the morning and that's usually the time my OCD goes into overdrive. I've now put that difficult day behind me however and am looking forward to overcoming more challenges this week. That's it for now folks. Good luck to all fellow OCD warriors out there,  later!

Sounds like you are making progress and have the right attitude when you make a slip by letting it go. Keep on with your recovery work. You will make it.

Thanks seamstress,  I appreciate the encouragement 👍. 

I did hear about an interesting report regarding covid-19, I don't know whether or not you're still worried about it? Anyway,  the report stated that people living in the same house as a person infected with covid-19,  stand a 'very good' chance of remaining covid free as long as that person is self isolating and you're taking reasonable precautions (keeping windows open, practising good hygiene etc). I know it's kind of obvious,  but having experts look at the data and verifying it is reassuring (maybe I shouldn't have mentioned it, oh well). 

Good luck with your own struggles - H

I am doing okay and prob. the real issue is OCD and not Covid-19, although it is a concern for me and many people.  I just keep practicing ERP with all of my issues that come up- try to anyway.  ERP works for all kinds of OCD concerns.

Hello all! Just thought I'd give a little update on my situation. I've hesitated a couple of days before writing this, I have to admit. Things were going well until recently,  I'd been into town again and enjoyed lunch in the park, brought shopping and returned home using public transport,  and had been venturing out after the delivery guy had come (although not straight after).

They say all good things must come to an end, and so it proved a couple of days ago. An African male posted some junk mail through my letterbox,  I just wasn't expecting that. I hadn't been sleeping well, probably because of the energy drinks I've been consuming. I was tired and miserable,  it was morning time when my OCD is always stronger. And now as I write this two days later I still haven't been able to leave the apartment. 

I'll post another update in a few days time. Hopefully I will have overcome this setback and will be travelling once more on the road to recovery. Good luck to everyone battling this determined foe - H

You shouldn't be drinking energy drinks or caffeine in general, it makes things worse, you are more nervous about it. Also, try to maintain steady schedule, messing it up makes ocd worse. Not to give you reassurance but you surely did some research on hiv already, right? So you know what are the real chances of contracting sth two days after the guy came, right? 

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