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messedfornow Yeah anon I feel you!
messedfornow Lots of rumination has been present today.. mainly because my physical restlessness when disregarding these stupid thoughts that is it okay to just disregard these thoughts
messedfornow I mean is it okay to just be physically unrest when disregarding painful thoughts? Like moving your feet when trying to disregard thoughts?
messedfornow It is really hard to just stand still when these thoughts are present.. My mind just keeps asking is these restlessness compulsion? I just think it is a normal reaction to anxiety
needyou Hi
needyou I want to ask something to other ocd sufferers. Is a compulsion or ressurance, to tell your friend about your obsesseions and to tell him that you feel very sad and depressed... Because I do this 1-2 times a day. Is this a compulsion that I should stop?
getoverthis266 more like reassurance i think.
needyou Yes I think that is something that I have to stop.. But the truth is that it's difficult.. I shouldn't tell all the time that I'm sad.... I have to accept that I'm all the time sad and live with these feelings
getoverthis266 hey. i think all you gotta do is loosen up a lil bit. i find dancing effective.
getoverthis266 learning new moves and it doesn't matter if you are beginner or what phase you're at.
getoverthis266 dance exercise i pretty darn fun i tell you that.
needyou Dance is really a helpful weapon... Good idea
getoverthis266 and also telling people you're sad and all is good. no doubts about it but here's the thing. It's up to you how to make yourself happy
getoverthis266 there are different and various outlets for you to release that pent up frustration, anxiety and depression especially in this pandemic
getoverthis266 think of this time as the period of improvement where all people are busy thinking bout the future and whatnnot. focus unto yourself.
getoverthis266 and also, if you're an atheist which i leaned my beliefs heavily before this pandemic occurs, i found out that all you gotta do i have a leap of faith in religion. Pessimism only adds up to your cartlist of worries so you gotta understand that.
getoverthis266 it's the flawed way of thinking. your mind deteriorates from constantly asking question. what we really need right now is do what you gotta do.
getoverthis266 ciao.
needyou Thank you!!
Seamstress I am starting to find this forum very disappointing and frustrating. It was really helping me and I was trying to help others. However, now there is so much spam or people hacking into the forum that it is adding to my stress when I come on it. Is there not a way in which this can be fixed permanently - like an anti-virus protection etc. Please try to keep an eye on this problem. Thank you.
Kiramus Anyone else struggling with false attraction feeling so real, can someone give me any tips the last things I'm struggling with is false attraction that I've NEVER had before and like memories that I've had where I had admired girls and wanted to look like them trying to trick me into believing that I was attracted to them but I know it's not true... Someone help...
Seamstress Sorry to be a bother, but are there people monitoring this forum who can fix it?
frazer123 i have fallen off hard, the ocd is causing me to have doubts about my relationship and my compulsion is to go and see her to talk about it as she always makes things better. ive now allowed the ocd too much leeway and im struggling to stop my self from going to see her as i see it as my only option. please help
Seamstress Try to resist the compulsion to seek reassurance. Seeking reassurance will feel better at first, but it will make your OCD worse in the long run. Try to disregard the thoughts to do so and focus on something else. After little while your anxiety usually decreases. That is my experience anyway.
frazer123 The idea of not being able to seek reassurance is so scary to me though, do I really have to go through this all alone?
Seamstress In my opinion it is always scary not seeking reassurance. Try postponing doing it for a little while and see if your anxiety drops a little.
NickJ055 I dated my girlfriend when we were about 18 yrs old, and didn’t feel I’m love with her, but we reconnected and are dating again (22 years old now) I love her very much and sometimes want to spend my life with her, but worry that if I didn’t love her then, I just be lying to myself now. I worry about if I just don’t want to hurt her feelings again like I did when I was younger.
NickJ055 We have talked recently about moving moving in together and the thought simultaneously fills me with joy and scares me, I worry that I’ll discover in a year or so that I really was lying to myself but then it will hurt her even more if I leave. I don’t want to leave her though, and hate myself for thinking I might.
Melissam Hi all,
Melissam I think I have pure o and have trouble falling asleep. I had to take medication to sleep and now I’m in despair. I feel like I’ll never be ok again. I obsess over sleep and have no life. I feel like I’m dying inside
Melissam I need help and encouragement. Anyone there?
Melissam Guess this forum is useless...I came on asking for help and support and I get no answer
andrey_m False memory
Joe Melissa your seeking re-assurance... You need to understand OCD will drain you, will scare you.. will take everything away from you should you let it- You need to 1. recgonize that you have OCD- 2- start the recovery road! I am always here to help.. but i will not give re-assurance.
andrey_m False memory
Jessica cool
Jessica Hiii
andrey_m Can anyone help with False Memory?
Seamstress I am beginning to wonder if I am the only one with spam on my computer re: this forum. Is this not an issue for others???
Helmut Schmacker Lol, you're not imagining things seamstress. Ali's adding moderators to the forum soon, they should be able to deal with it.
needyou I have a question
needyou Can someone help me
needyou Today I feel low...
needyou I cry all day.. I don't feel gopd
needyou Guys your ocd changes themes all the time?? Mine.. All the time changes themes especially when I start to feel relaxed. And then boom, another theme.. It's so exhausting situation. I try to not ruminate. Oh God I need so much a little bit rest...
judys Hi is anybody here?
Joe Ocd changes the a secondary for you to react- than comes back to the main- DISREGARD THE THOUGHTS NO MATTER WHAT!! I know its hard but DO NOT REACT, RUMINATE OR TOUCH IT- LEAVE IT BE and MOVE ON!
needyou You are right Joe.. I shouldn't ruminate at all...today I have stomachache from anxiety.. Why life is so hard?
needyou I'm disappointed, I had my ocd 6 years in control.. But these months I haven't control... I wish I could feel some happiness. I don't remember how it is to feel happy
Joe If you counted how many years you were happy in OCD- you never defeated OCD. You just held onto it. time to let go needyou!!

Can anyone help with false memory OCD?

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Hello. I have False Memory OCD. For the last two months, the topic has been connected with the fact that I suddenly attacked a person. It all started with the usual thought that I suddenly attacked, but I realized that I did not remember leaving. Then I thought that I suddenly attacked a man somewhere in the entrance of my house. I felt terribly mentally and the next days I pondered this thought and, as it were, imagined the thought that I wanted to attack, in order to understand whether I had such a thought then, after which the thought immediately occurred that I suddenly attacked now. Suddenly, for a while, I imagined the thought that I wanted to attack, and suddenly I had a thought and suddenly I attacked. But I realized that I did not remember leaving. The next days I also imagined a thought, it interrupted the old one and I worried about the new OCD situation. Now I understand that all those situations were like a cycle. I was pondering the old OCD situation, imagining the thought, and the thought immediately occurred to me that I suddenly attacked and I was thinking about this OCD situation. The thoughts began to come that I suddenly attacked a man and carried him to a room that was located next to the apartment, but which was closed, the keys to it were with the neighbors. After the thought came that I suddenly attacked, I worried that suddenly the door was open, suddenly I carried a person there. But the door was closed. Over time, thoughts began to come that I suddenly carried the man into the hatch, which is located near the house. I looked at the hatch and tried to lift it, but the cover was very heavy. I realized that I could not lift it. Then I thought that I suddenly carried the man into one of the hatches, which are located near other entrances. I looked at these hatches. Tried to raise the roof. Then the thought came into my head that I suddenly carried the man into some kind of hatch located somewhere in the district. I walked around the courtyards, looked at the hatches, tried to figure out which one was open. In the meantime, I realized that all thoughts about the fact that I suddenly attacked are connected with the fact that I kind of imagine these thoughts, that I kind of want. But then I noticed that thoughts about the fact that I suddenly attacked come not only because I imagined a thought, but also from the fact that, for example, when I slept at night and pondered some thought, it occurred to me thought that I suddenly attacked. In the morning I realized that I didn’t remember that time clearly and the thought came into my head that suddenly I was leaving, suddenly I attacked. Also, the thought came when I was irritated and, as it were, thoughts that I want to attack from irritation came to my mind, the thought that suddenly I attacked, panic, excitement came to my mind. Then I was very scared by the thought. I understood that I did not remember leaving, but I remembered the irritation and the thought that suddenly I attacked came into my head. I understood that this OCD situation is one of the strongest blows from the OCD, but the thought came into my head that suddenly it was not an OCD, suddenly I attacked. I walked around and looked at the hatches. I tried to understand if I was in those places where the hatches are. But before a week had passed since that OCD situation, a new OCD situation happened a few days later. I was lying on the couch, could not sleep, I was attacked by these performances. OCD was like trying to lure me into a state so that I could start imagining a thought again and get a new thought that suddenly I was attacked. I slept and, imagining how I was lying, as if imagined something for a second and then the thought came that suddenly I attacked. Suddenly I got up and suddenly I left the house, suddenly I attacked. I realized that I did not remember leaving, but imagined some kind of thought. The next day I slept during the day. And when I woke up a few hours later, I recalled that when I slept in my head there were thoughts that I suddenly attacked. I began to worry that suddenly I was leaving the apartment, suddenly I attacked then. But I didn't remember leaving. The next day, I was attacked by OCD all day and seemed to shout that I should think about the situation that I suddenly attacked then. I pondered and, as it were, twice imagined the thought that suddenly I had attacked, after which the thought came that suddenly I had just attacked. But I understand that most likely I imagined a thought and I don't remember leaving. I went to bed in the afternoon. I slept for three hours, maybe more. I don’t remember exactly how I woke up and I don’t clearly remember that time, but I kind of imagined the thought that I wanted to attack or something like that. The thought immediately occurred to me that I suddenly attacked. I was lying on the couch. I understood that I did not remember leaving, but what I imagined was very frightening to me. The thought came into my head that suddenly I had not imagined, suddenly I had a real thought. I did not understand why I imagined this thought. But I realized that I was half asleep and perhaps had no control over the appearance of this imagination of thought. But thoughts came into my head that I suddenly attacked. I was locked in the apartment, and the second keys were hidden. I didn't know where. I got up and started looking for them. I have not found them. But thoughts crept into my head that suddenly I got up then, suddenly I found them, suddenly I attacked, suddenly I put them where I found and forgot. But I couldn't forget if I found the keys. I would like to hear your opinion on this situation. Is this false memory OCD? What is this "imagination of thought". Why am I imagining such thoughts? I am very worried that I do not have a panic. The thought that suddenly in the last situation I attacked, suddenly I did not imagine something, and suddenly I wanted and suddenly I attacked. I am very worried about the latter situation and would like to hear your opinion. Thanks in advance for your reply.

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Stop ruminating about the situation and testing if it could be true. The more you do that, the worse and more uncertain you feel. Try to reduce the time you think about it and stop doing physical compulsions. In time, the anxiety lowers and you will get the certainty you are looking for. 

Listen to some Ali's videos about false memories - every time you feel this super anxious about sth you 'might have done', it is ocd=lies. With normal memories, there isn't this anxiety present. Also, with important events, you are certain.