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Anonymous101351

Has anyone here fully recovered from ROCD

Hi this is Christa on another device and sorry but I have not. I think Michele has but I am not sure where she has been.

Anonymous101054

Christa

So basically im gonna try to make this not as weird as possible lol but if you are masturbating to something you like and it pops up then you can stop if you are not ready for the exposure but once you are ready be like okay im gonna keep going and try to focus as much on what i want and if its there its there. Then afterwords be like ok ocd was just trying to get me to react that was my trigger

So it happened Again, I was Masturbating and it happened right as I Climaxed, and I even got a Deep Sense of Dread, as if I had just Gravely f**ked up and it happened so quick I can't even analyze why it happened or the feeling, I guess that is Good tho so I won't analyze it, but the Feeling is Very Horrible and Depressing and Disgusting

Anonymous99304

Anonymous101054

So it happened Again, I was Masturbating and it happened right as I Climaxed, and I even got a Deep Sense of Dread, as if I had just Gravely f**ked up and it happened so quick I can't even analyze why it happened or the feeling, I guess that is Good tho so I won't analyze it, but the Feeling is Very Horrible and Depressing and Disgusting

Yeah just don't analyze it at all, look at it as ocd is just trying to get me to react.

Anonymous101054

oh I think the main reason I Felt so Horrible was because when I got it I still kept stroking, but I'm Pretty sure it was because it happened So Quickly and as soon as I realized it I stopped and the Dread and Disgust set in (sorry for the TMI)

Anonymous101054

Idk if I'm ready to do with Exposure too Frequently, Not Only because its Absolutely Disgusting, but also because I won't Be able to think of anything else in time, that's part of the reason it's so Distressing for me, because I get these thoughts and I Literally Cannot Change it Quickly, I actually have to focus to think of something else, ANYTHING Else, And I Fear I Wont be able to in Time

Christa

Anonymous101054

Idk if I'm ready to do with Exposure too Frequently, Not Only because its Absolutely Disgusting, but also because I won't Be able to think of anything else in time, that's part of the reason it's so Distressing for me, because I get these thoughts and I Literally Cannot Change it Quickly, I actually have to focus to think of something else, ANYTHING Else, And I Fear I Wont be able to in Time

Its okay if you arent ready take your time but like i said just see the horrible feeling as ocd and ocd only

Anonymous101054

Sometimes its REEEEEEAAAAAALLLLLLYYYYYY HARD

Anonymous101054

Especially when they Feel REAL, OCD Legit Also Affects My Train of Thought, I get thinking about stuff I would normally never think about

Anonymous101054

It Makes Me Feel Horrible, it's to the Point where I Cannot Look at Myself in the Mirror

Anonymous101054

And its a Genuine Fear for Me Because I have always Seen Myself as a Too h***y, even as a Kid (Again Sorry for the TMI), and Idk if its due to me being a Teen at the Peak of my Hormones phase, or because I was raised in a Religious house and being Sexual always made me feel guilty or Gross, but I have always felt like a "Deviant" even tho I know there are Far Far Much Worse people out there

Anonymous101054

And my OCD is Sexual, so that's why I get a Genuine Fear that this OCD isn't Too Unrealistic of Me even tho I Hate Everything about it and Fear it

Anonymous101054

And I Do Believe I should work on some things about Myself, I should, also maybe that I won't feel So Self-Loathing to the point where I Believe and Fear I would be capable of this

Anonymous86699

Hi to anyone who has HOCD or has recovered from HOCD, did you ever get thoughts of like when literally anything abt s*x or relationships was mentioned and you immediately thought of the same s*x even though you didn’t want to and then you try to think about how you want to be with the opposite s*x but that nagging doubt in the back of your mind is saying you don’t want it? Idk why I have the t

Anonymous86699

Idk why I have these thoughts and I don’t want to but I’m worried that it means something or that I’m just lying to myself. Please I need help

Anonymous101054

Can OCD Also Like Affect your Train of thought, like the Nature of your thoughts and like make you look at things Differently? And stare?

Christa

Anonymous101054

And I Do Believe I should work on some things about Myself, I should, also maybe that I won't feel So Self-Loathing to the point where I Believe and Fear I would be capable of this

I know how annoying it is i struggle from sexual ocd as well and all of this happened to me too. It honestly sucks but at the end of the day its all ocd.

Christa

Anonymous86699

Hi to anyone who has HOCD or has recovered from HOCD, did you ever get thoughts of like when literally anything abt s*x or relationships was mentioned and you immediately thought of the same s*x even though you didn’t want to and then you try to think about how you want to be with the opposite s*x but that nagging doubt in the back of your mind is saying you don’t want it? Idk why I have the t

Hi! So yes I recovered from hocd and this happened to me as well. Disregard its all ocd trying to pull you into reaction

Christa

Anonymous101054

Can OCD Also Like Affect your Train of thought, like the Nature of your thoughts and like make you look at things Differently? And stare?

Yes ocd affects literally everything your brain is always on alert for specific topics and your train of thought will be affected as well at least mine was

Christa

Alright everyone i might be back on the chat later but im gonna head off. I love you all and wish you the best. You guys are the strongest people ever. And no matter what always remember ocd can make you feel, think, believe, etc. Anything dont fall for it. Keep reminding yourself its main goal which is getting you scared and reacting

Anonymous101054

Cause I saw picture of someone Breastfeeding and I got like the urge to look at the Woman's b*****s and Zoom in and I don't even think it turned me on, I didn't feel much of anything, maybe a little response but it was

Anonymous101054

Weird

Anonymous101054

I Realized How Fricking Weird it was and I was like "WTF?!" Why would I do this? And it worried Me Because as I've Explained, I Already Feel like a Sexual "Deviant", for the reasons I stated before, even tho I know there are Wayyyy Worse People, but I don't feel like I wouldn't done this if I wasn't in My OCD wave Rn, but idk tho, and it's worrying Me

Anonymous101054

And it made me go back to it over and over again to see if I got the same urge

Anonymous101054

It's Stressing me out rn because I'm Not sure if this OCD or Something I would actually do without OCD, I've Definitely had some Low Points, but I'm Sure I Would've Matured By Now, and I don't think I would've looked at it that way if My OCD (Which is Sexual in Nature) wouldn't make me focus on this type if stuff, but Idk, My OCD Makes me Feel like I would

Anonymous101054

This Self-Loathing Also Affects me in POCD Because it makes me Feel like I'm Capable of getting a b***r of Anything, even tho Logically I Find it Absolutely Abhorrent like Absolutely Deplorable, and Terrifying

Anonymous101054

B***r is B0n3r

Anonymous86699

Christa

Hi! So yes I recovered from hocd and this happened to me as well. Disregard its all ocd trying to pull you into reaction

Thank you

Anonymous101334

Anonymous86699

Thank you

You have to also resist seeking reassurance and looking to relieve the anxiety. Just sit with it and let it be there

Christa

Anonymous101054

I Realized How Fricking Weird it was and I was like "WTF?!" Why would I do this? And it worried Me Because as I've Explained, I Already Feel like a Sexual "Deviant", for the reasons I stated before, even tho I know there are Wayyyy Worse People, but I don't feel like I wouldn't done this if I wasn't in My OCD wave Rn, but idk tho, and it's worrying Me

Hey this is classic ocd your brain is trying to protect u so it sends u all the urges and feelings like this to make it feel as real as possible. Disregard it all

Christa

Anonymous101054

And it made me go back to it over and over again to see if I got the same urge

I had a similar thing everything you are saying was so common for me and it went away

Christa

Anonymous101054

This Self-Loathing Also Affects me in POCD Because it makes me Feel like I'm Capable of getting a b***r of Anything, even tho Logically I Find it Absolutely Abhorrent like Absolutely Deplorable, and Terrifying

I really reccomend you stop analyzing this and going over it. I have seen your posts all day and it is classic ocd coming from somebody who went through the exact situation. Start letting go of this and viewing it as ocd

Christa

Anonymous86699

Thank you

No problem

Anonymous99717

im scared about real or false memories about pocd, im really worried about the attraction feelings and the thoughts because it feels like i enjoy them

Anonymous76090

Hi christa as you recovered from hocd and I have a extreme case. Did you as well get these urges to m********e to the intrusive thoughts including o****m, all day these heavy groinal responses which feel like Erektion and you getting memory’s of your past where you are convinced hey this was some feeling I had for a same s*x person which proves I am gay etc….

Anonymous76090

And because of this you have Depression so heavy that you can’t function anymore

Anonymous99366

Hi I have an appointment with Ali later will she be sending me the link via email?

Anonymous99364

I have an appointment in about two hours but no email yet

Anonymous99366

Anyone know what I should do or should I just wait for her to contact me?

Anonymous100238

Anonymous99366

Anyone know what I should do or should I just wait for her to contact me?

Did u have your appointment

Anonymous101463

hey i have rocd, how do you know the line between ocd and genuine problems?

Anonymous101318

I know that you say erp works but it hasn't worked for me where do I go now? Any advice would be great thank you. I actually act on some of my thoughts aswell which is not good it's got that severe

Anonymous101465

Anonymous101318

I know that you say erp works but it hasn't worked for me where do I go now? Any advice would be great thank you. I actually act on some of my thoughts aswell which is not good it's got that severe

What type of OCD do you have? What kind of exposures are you doing?

Christa

Anonymous99717

im scared about real or false memories about pocd, im really worried about the attraction feelings and the thoughts because it feels like i enjoy them

Hi! I suffer from pocd and im in the later stages. This happened to me its 100% normal ocd can make you feel anything but it does go away with time and recovery work

Christa

Anonymous76090

Hi christa as you recovered from hocd and I have a extreme case. Did you as well get these urges to m********e to the intrusive thoughts including o****m, all day these heavy groinal responses which feel like Erektion and you getting memory’s of your past where you are convinced hey this was some feeling I had for a same s*x person which proves I am gay etc….

Oh yeah for like 2 weeks i just had an urge to m********e while watching a show that I liked but i took it as ocd and didnt give it my attention and it went away slowly over time. I also had the false memories where I had feelings for a girl like how you explained it was my exact situation. And im a girl so I dont get erections but the groinal responses were intense for me as well.

Christa

Anonymous76090

And because of this you have Depression so heavy that you can’t function anymore

Depression is extremely common in ocd and this is completely normal

Christa

Anonymous101463

hey i have rocd, how do you know the line between ocd and genuine problems?

Hi! So the line between ocd and genuine problems is that genuine problems are problems that someone without ocd would get. For example, a genuine problem would be if you and your boyfriend got over a fight about something that happened like in real life not in your head but an ocd problem is fearing your boyfriend will leave you from the fight

Christa

Anonymous101318

I know that you say erp works but it hasn't worked for me where do I go now? Any advice would be great thank you. I actually act on some of my thoughts aswell which is not good it's got that severe

Try to look and evaluate what you are doing. Any type of reassaurance behaviors or worrying or self reasaurance or rumination keeps ocd alive. Hoe long have you been doing erp? Depending on how long you have been doing it may feel like its not working the first month

Helmut Schmacker

Reassurance reassurance reassurance! Hey guys, anyone else having one of those days today?

Anonymous101495

Hi evryone, i'm a french guy so sorry for my bad english. It's possible to have hocd without the little voice?

Christa

Anonymous101495

Hi evryone, i'm a french guy so sorry for my bad english. It's possible to have hocd without the little voice?

Yes hocd can show up in many ways for different people.

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