Recovery help?

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I have brought down my rumination to below 1% a day. And I have been doing it for about a month. My problem is my OCD theme/fear is still in the back of my head. I'm trying to suffocate it out. How much longer will I have to go not ruminating to finally feel like my theme is gone? 

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This is something I worry about happening to me too with my current theme. And while you are further along than me currently in this process of recovery, I can say from previous experience it takes awhile. I have relapsed severely with my ocd after being nearly ocd free for 6 years. (Had it my whole life) In my previous severe ocd bout which lasted for several years, once I finally began getting better it was gradual, over the course of several months. I think something that may cause themes to linger too is the almost obsessive thoughts of “am I recovered?”  Ask yourself if you are checking to see if the theme still bothers you, revisiting thoughts, or obsessing on if you feel fully better yet. You may have developed an obsession about it in itself (I’m finding myself doing this to an extent currently because I want this theme gone so badly). So I would say try to live your life despite ocd. Especially with you being down to 1%. I know last time I got better (just personal experience) once I felt strong enough I stopped visiting forums. I stopped googling ocd related things. I stopped checking to see if I was better and I’d say “maybe this theme/these thoughts will go away but maybe they won’t. I’m going to live my life regardless”. Now, mind you I was only able to say that once I felt pretty darn strong when I was getting better and it was just a nagging feeling. You have to let go of this strong desire for the theme to leave you. Because ocd is a jerk and that strong desire to be fully recovered is something ocd has clung to. So treat those thoughts like you have treated your other ocd thoughts. Soon enough it will leave you. But tell yourself maybe it will maybe it won’t. Like Ali says, live parallel to it. It will go with time. Good luck to you! 

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Just to add to my last post...I think the main thing keeping you entangled is a lack of acceptance. And I don’t mean you accept the content of the thoughts. None of us do. Accept having the thoughts. Trying to suffocate them out and hoping for it to be gone is not accepting having the thoughts. Fake it til you make it. Say if this theme wants to stay in the back of my head it can. I’m going to live my life. It will leave you with time. You have to remember if you’ve been doing the wrong thing (rumination, compulsions) for awhile it will take awhile for it to fully go away. 

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I can totally relate! Even during times when ocd is not as bad as it can be, its always in the background. Like a wound which doesnt bleed anymore but it scratches sometimes and...its there. And this of course makes me doubting "what does this say about me, why doesnt it go away". I think as well, we have to accept that the thoughts are there, labeling them as ocd and move on with our life.

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I appreciate the replies. They really helped. Yeah, I'm just fed up with it. You're right it is a compulsion in itself to check if I'm recovered. After three straight years of analyzing and ruminating, it's going to take time for my brain to heal. More than 1 month. I will live my life parallel to the thought even if it wants to stay in the background for however long it wants.