False memories

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Hello guys. Sorry for me English. 

I had recovered from ocd for 3 months. I was feeling myself again.. Now the hell is here, my ocd is back. I have false memories that I killed. It's so disgusting and making me feel so sad and depressed. It's like I forgot how to get better, how to recover. I also have thought's that I don't deserve to live that I should stay all day at home, that I shouldn't marry my man.. I don't know how to continue my life because whatever I do I do it with depression, very big depression. Should I continue my life and living with these very strong depressive feelings? Please advice me someone who has recovered from false memory ocd.