Quote from Guest on January 12, 2021, 10:21 pm
I have the same exact fear. I listened and listened and listened... and investigated any sound I didn’t immediately know the source of. I ended up convincing myself I heard something. It seemed like I couldn’t do erp because it was so automatic. So I started not investigating. I just started saying to myself “don’t know.” It was so uncomfortable because I felt as though if I couldn’t prove where the sound came from therefore I must have schizophrenia. I kept doing this and it became more and more easy. It was painful and uncomfortable and felt like torture. But there is a silver lining... the more you refuse to investigate or make yourself feel better and just say “maybe” or “don’t know” the easier it becomes. The feelings are the hardest part. It feels like you must figure this out. But you don’t and the more you make it a priority to leave it unanswered the better you feel. I empathize with how you are feeling but these feelings are temporary and begin to lift as you progress.