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<blockquote><div class="quotetitle">Quote from Guest on February 1, 2021, 4:51 pm</div><p>I get hurt OCD along with false memory. It all started with the obsessive thought that I suddenly attacked. Pondering it, I imagined the thought that I, as it were, wanted to attack, in order to understand whether it was or not, but this provoked a new thought that suddenly I attacked now. This created a cycle: I thought about the old situation, imagined a thought and immediately a new thought came up and a new OCD situation was obtained. All this lasted a very long time and brought a lot of pain and suffering. I checked the places where my thoughts told me I could suddenly carry a person. Bit by bit, I restored everything in my memory and eventually came to the conclusion that it was all about these considerations themselves. As soon as I imagined a desire or a thought, I immediately thought that I suddenly attacked. That is, as I understood this second of imagination provoked a new thought, which gave rise to the thought: "suddenly I attacked now, suddenly I did not imagine the thought, but suddenly I attacked." This brought panic and excitement. I read about false memory OCD on the Internet and realized that thoughts come on their own there, and in my situation with OCD, I kind of provoke my thoughts myself. This spawned a thought in my head: "Is that all OCD?" But I realized that most likely this is OCD and these very imaginations are obsessive thoughts, they are also rituals, as I was imagining when I tried to solve some past OCD situation. Time passed. OCD got worse. Thoughts were transferred to another location - hatches. Thoughts crept into my head that I suddenly took the person there. I realized that I did not remember leaving the house and taking a person somewhere. I looked at the hatches, trying to understand whether I opened it or not, but I didn't even know which of the many hatches near the house I could carry the person to. I understood that OCD was getting worse. I was getting worse. I have noticed a tendency for a long time now that the new OCD situation overshadows the old one. Once a new strong OCD situation, which brought a lot of panic, overshadowed the old one, but I was able to prove in time that it was not. I started not to react to all thoughts. I was heavily attacked by thoughts. Thoughts constantly entered my head that I needed to think about past situations, I needed to ruminate, but I tried to avoid ruminating. The next day I was again attacked by thought OCD. As soon as I thought about the location, I immediately got the idea that I suddenly attacked. I pondered this situation and imagined a thought. Immediately the thought came that I suddenly attacked. I went to bed. Not having time to wake up, I imagined a thought, the thought came again that I suddenly attacked. I pondered this situation, imagined thoughts and the thought came that suddenly I attacked when imagining. I realized that OCD was pulling me back into the swamp of rumination. Over the next few days, I argued again that it was all OCD. I was looking for evidence that I did not attack. I remember being asleep and starting to think again. The thought came that I suddenly attacked. In the morning I felt awful. The thought came into my head that I suddenly attacked. I did not feel panic and it worried me very much. I lay on the couch and pondered why I did not have a panic. I don't remember how, but the thought occurred to me that I suddenly attacked. The next day I was sitting on the couch, I felt very bad, I was emotional and said that I was a murderer. The thought came to my mind that I suddenly attacked. I realized that I didn’t remember leaving, but the thought came to my mind that I suddenly said so and suddenly I went and suddenly I attacked. I was in a very bad mental state. In the evening I sat at the table and felt a sense of annoyance about the attack. As if feelings of anger climbed and that, as if out of anger, I want to attack. There were feelings that I wanted to attack out of anger. I don't remember how, but the thought occurred to me that I suddenly attacked out of anger. I was in a panic. I understood that I had these feelings, but I did not understand how the thought came to my mind that I suddenly attacked out of irritation. The thought came into my head that I suddenly left the apartment out of irritation and attacked. This situation hit me hard. I realized that I didn’t remember leaving, but thoughts came into my head that I had feelings and suddenly I did, because I had the thought that I suddenly attacked. The thought came into my head that I suddenly attacked with irritation. I'm trying to figure out whether this is another manifestation of OCD or not. It's very difficult for me. I try to understand what happened and the thought that suddenly this is not ocd climb into my head. I understand that I could be in irritation, and then, as it were, imagine a thought, but thoughts come into my head that I suddenly attacked because of irritation. It's very hard for me. Thoughts come to my mind that I suddenly attacked, but I understand that I don't remember leaving. I would like to hear your opinion. Is it OCD?</p></blockquote><br>

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