Quote from Guest on January 30, 2021, 10:49 am
You are ruminating still and are coming here looking for people to tell you this is just ocd. It clearly isn’t helping you so I would suggest you stop doing it. Start tracking the time and commit to reducing rumination no matter what. No matter how you feel or how real it feels. Hold yourself accountable and come here only to post your times or to discuss how you feel outside of your ocd. No more reassurance seeking.
Anything that counts as taking those thoughts, urges, images, sensations, feelings etc seriously is rumination. Problem solving is rumination. Asking questions is rumination. Trying to solve them is rumination. Anything you do to try and reduce the feelings you get when these thoughts happen count as compulsions. Stop doing all of them. Otherwise you will only get worse. I hope this helps.