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<blockquote><div class="quotetitle">Quote from Susan Oliver on January 1, 2021, 4:53 pm</div><div class="post-message">
<p>Hello, I came here as I need a help with my OCD. Well, to be honest, I do not really understamd what is going on. I thought I suffer from harm OCD. But as I go through other's stories I can see some similarities like they are afraid they can hurt someone they love, they are avoiding knives for example, etc. I am getting intrusive thoughts like 'die' - I do not want anyone to die of course!, but it is like I am thinking about someone and suddenly I get this or similar very intrusive thought. Everytime I get this thoughts I have to wash my hands. Again, this is different from other's compulsions as mostly people with this type of OCD are ruminating, googling, etc. Well, to be honest I do not know why I am washing my hands. I cannot touch the thoughts hence why hands??? It sounds crazy I know. </p>
<p>I have started to do ERP. As there are no specialists here in this kind of therapy I am doing it on my own. </p>
<p>But my mind has found another way how to bully me. When I started to feel some progress in my recovery I thought I have it under control finally. No way. Now I get a thought towards me for example like ok, I will die. Fine, I just disregard the thought and I am doing what I did before the thought hit. But suddenly I find myself thinking and ruminating about the thought in terms of was it really towards me? Wasn't the thought addressed to my son? Or someone else? And this is so tricky that it always gets me back into compulsions so I am washing hands. Then I am crying because I feel like I lost my mind, I am pretty sure that the thought was about me and not anyone else but the doubt is still there what scares me a lot because I love everyone and I do not want to lose anybody. Could this be false memory? Is here someone who has similar thoughts and hand washing compulsions to neutralize them? I appreciate your experience and help. Thank you</p>
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